bleh i don't remember ever havin a com
quite as tragic as the one
i have to make do wif now.
dad and marcus persist that
since all i do wif the com is chat and surf,
havin an ancient but functional(?!)
win98 cyrix266(what???!) is more than enuff.

we cudnt even find a mouse wif a port
that wud fit into the stupid cpu
so now i have to use this...
scroll-less yellowing mouse.
i nvr knew how much i'd cum to rely on scrollers,
until i had to sit there manually scrolling
by clicking and dragging.
urgh.

mel and elijah's intuition proved right.
we weren't even among the top 4!!
everybody was so indignant
that we all kept cornering the judges after the thing
and bombarded them wif questions :P
i gez if u're gonna b a loser,
u still gotta have sum fun.

accing to the judges,
we did not portray our characters
the way our clothes suggested.
they sed since we were dressed up as msians,
we shud have had slangs, not accents.
mr william on the other hand
sed that as a rule,
"lah"s and "mah"s weren't allowed,
so we cudnt slang even if we wanted to.
*shrugz*

we all did a good amount of bitchin around.
mr william told the judges that our skewl
wasn't gonna take part nemore,
coz over the yrs
they'd always found sum unplausible excuse
not to let us win.
i don't noe whether that's true,
or that we just suck :P
but wtv la, it was good fun while it lasted.

exams exams...
thank God they're over.
addmath yday was a nightmare.
nvr in my whole entire 15 years
have i felt and been so mind-nullingly stupid at math before.
urgh.
but 'nuff sed bout that.

tomorrow's the zone competition
and we haven't rehearsed since... sat.
2 days w/o rehearsing can cause a goodly number of foul-ups
on the Day itself,
so now we're just sittin tight with our fingers crossed.
ray tat apparently has epilepsy
and he forgot to take his pills on mon,
so he hasn't been to skewl yday and today.
another thing to pray for.
mel and elijah
sed they have bad feelings bout tml's drama.
i soo hope their intuition proves wrong.

today and yday sucked
so i'm not bloggin bout it.

for wut i have left of today,
i shall spoil myself thoroughly.
i've already done a pretty good job of it.
maccaroni, 4 packets of twisties and an ice-cream cone.
later: a nice long shower, a good read, some yabbin,
some onlinin, and then some peaceful sleep.
damn all that sounds so goood.
all that's missin is some shoppin :P

i have decided that i love my dad.
but that i don't particularly like him at all.

today he went on with one of his reknowned moving sprees
and starting getting everybody involved
with carrying tables and computers and keyboards
up and down the stairs.

and bcoz the male members of the wong family
are always seemingly too busy tinkering around with the wires
and computers and router modems and settings,
tis always the females that carry the stuff around.
and BCOZ my mother and ayi are more ..revered,
and mimmles too young and scrawny,
twas kakak and i that did the carrying.

haven't blogged in a week
and this is the 1st thing i start on about.
...tis not good at all.
i shall digress.

this whole week has been nth but exams, exams
and lotsa hasty cramming.
sej and bc have gone beyond hope,
and chances of passing chem and phys is kinda half past six,
but other than that it was all pretty ok.

yday was the drama competition,
and so we were in skewl by 7am.
it was fun :P
the day before,
i was miffed coz liz and cow wasn't comin,
but it turned out kewl :)
by 8am there were all sorts of highly colorful characters
walking around skewl.
there was a santa claus,
some mermaids in slinky shimmering skirts,
a hunchbacked witch with a fantastically realistic hooked nose and warts
(she completely stole the show and was the best female actor),
there was a fat bearded king who was really a girl
(assuntarians :P)..

and there was us:
a detective in a trenchcoat and cowboy hat,
a chinese butler with a braid flowing down to his waist,
a small-sized rapist in an overlarge coat,
and me in my cheongsam and pearls.
that cheongsam taught me how it feels to properly suffocate.
literally and figuratively.
u see, it cost 220 bucks(!!!!!!!!!!!!!),
and i paid half for it.

our skewl was the last one to perform.
we sat at the back of the dewan
and slowly eliminated the competition.
when it came to our turn,
we yelled, cried, rebuked, scowled, laughed nervously and shook our heads.
and guess what?
we got 1st place :P

mum made it just in time to see us.
she got there the moment the curtains were going up.
i think she enjoyed it :)
pn tan lin even shook our hands and complimented us.
pn tai sed we were 100% better than the day before.
mr william's eyes shone and glittered with glee.
hehe it was all so kewl.
i've nvr had a victory like that before.

our next round will be at seafield, on wed.
hopefully we won't have to be exempted from exams,
coz est and bi are essential for saving my purata.
and hopefully, we shall triumph again :)

went to church after that feelin all chirpy.
tian an, yu xuan and cow came and it made everything even better :P
pastor joshua's msg was very reassuring and happifying.
he told us not to focus on our love for Him,
but on His love for us.
he sed when you're on a plane
you don't flap ur arms to help the pilot fly,
but you sit back and enjoy the flight.
he sed that we being humans can nvr love perfectly,
but His love for us is eternally perfect.
and it made things great :P

we had free mcd burgers and drinks,
and got to watch the dream star competition thing.
all sorts of the funniest ppl went up to try their luck.
this girl dressed up like a girl on the right,
and like a guy on the left.
and damn, she was soo convincing :P
she created the best rapport with the audience.
i mean, everytime she turned into a guy or a girl,
everybody hooted and cheered.
pastor joshua laughed so hard you could barely see his eyes.
even cow went up for a moo or two,
and i nearly died of mortification.

but u noe wut?
all that wasn't even the highlight of the day :)
later on the phone,
cow and i wished each other happy anniversary,
and had the funniest, sweetest,
most wonderful conversation i can remember.
1 year later, and we're still together.
happier and closer than ever :) :) :) :) :)
Thank You, God,
for being there with us always and forevermore.
you rock.

this is gonna sound lik 1 dumb post.

my dad is the one person
who can hurt/affect me the most
w/o even needing to try.
all he needs to do is raise his voice
or give me that ..look.

i hate that.

"tsst, don't ask stupid questions
like that at dinner."

and just like that,
i got all pissed and
my eyes began to sting with angry tears.
really stupid, i noe.
but i don't noe why it's like that.

all i asked was
"dad, what's your favorite song?"
geez.
he didn't have to look so damned irritated about it.
nor sound so pissed.

there's sth about my dad.
he's scary.
when he's in one of his moods,
everybody except my mum
either cabuts
or shuts Up.

when we were in std 6 or sth,
liz and i went to my parents' bedroom to watch tv.
sometime after that,
she told me that seeing him
in mum and dads' wedding portrait
scared her.
so u see, i'm not kiddin.

here's a question:
wud it be more preferable to be happily ignorant?
or exceptionally intelligent and thus, unhappy?
me, i wanna be happy.
they say u shud live everyday as if it were ur last.
so... i gez to me,
being intelligent duznt mean that much
if u can't be happy.
esp if you're gonna die supersmart but really unhappy.
juz a thought.

dinner was fantastic
and that's why i'm bloggin.
dad and mum had this company dinner thing
at kampung ara.
we brought this huuuge fish my cousin
caught not long ago to the place
so that they could cook it.

the place was kinda shabby in the kampung way,
but reeeaally original.
there were shacks all over the place
with the roofs made out of coconut leaves.
the floor of the shacks were elevated off the ground
and there would be a short little table
in the middle of the floor.
the idea was that
you could eat sitting cross-legged :)

we din eat in one of those shacks tho,
coz it was a big party of 15 ppl.
we ate under genuine grapevines
entwined with golden xmas lights
and it was so romantic hehe.
the grapevines were really... authentic..
coz REAL little green grapes
were shrouded protectively amongst all the leaves...
like precious baby jewels.

the food was great too :P
dad and his chums especially loved the tomyam.
acc to him, he's nvr tasted tomyam soup
that good in the last 10 yrs.
it's the kewlest place, really.
perfect for an unique & romantic anniversary.
or mebbe for poppin important questions :P

i delight in not studying.
ignoring the pile of reference texts
sittin on the table in the computer room
fills me with pleasure supreme.

sleeping and yakkin on the fon
practically all afternoon
was soo exceedingly enjoyable.
rememberin that the exams start on tues,
and knowin that flunkin is now not an option but a certainty
thrills the core of my soul.
i rub my hands in glee at the very thought of the F-word.

of course...
this'll all change when mum pulls her toyota into the porch.

i suspect that i looked horribly frumpy today.
i went walking about in an oversized white shirt
with its sleeves pulled up,
and indistinguishable grey/green khakis
with the bottoms rolled above my knees.
my fringe was all pinned up in the most unattractive manner
and my ponytail was flying out in all directions.
furthermore, bcoz of some volleyball digging
and the lack of ventilation in the dewan,
i was sweating like a pig.

i reached skewl at 10am today
so that we could work on the easter rally banner
for a couple of solid hours before practise started.
it was only when i found out that the dewan was locked up
that i realised that mr. william was the one with the keys.
and since we'd all left the banner and paints inside,
we wudnt be able to work on it at all til 12pm anyway.

tian an got up at 10.40am
and finally reached skewl at 11 sth.
by then, i'd joined the volleyball club members
for a little digging.
s'been a long time since my last volleyball game...
i'd forgotten the feel of sending the ball flying thru the air.
the form 3 girls i played with were nice too,
tho... i might've already forgotten 1 or 2 of their names :P
so when tian an finally came ambling thru the skewl gates,
i didn't really mind the fact that he was nearly more than an hr late.

we sat in the canteen after the volleyball club members had left.
for a little guy, he's a big thinker.
listenin to him talk bout the bible and christ belittles me.
we went yabbering away about stuff until mr. william came.
and during that short interval
i believe i saw a part of him that i'd nvr quite suspected of before.

over the last few days...
tho whut happened wasn't very much or very bad,
i saw how ugly human nature can be.
u see, sum ppl i thot were friendly and pleasant
were not whut they seemed when they talked about this certain person,
and it irked me quite alot.
i nvr knew how ugly it was to hear a pretty, pleasant-faced girl swear,
esp over the triflest things that that sumbody sed or did.
and i nvr knew how disgusting a thing it cud b
to hear word spread about a silly spelling mistake
(in an SMS for craps' sake!)
that that certain sumbody committed a few days ago,
to just anybody who wouldn't mind listenin.

ppl can be horribly cruel without realising it.
and u noe wut?
when it came to painting the easter banner,
it wasn't these seemingly pleasant ppl that came to help,
but, among others, that certain sumbody who'd been the butt of their stupid joke all week.
*spits*

anyway, on to lighter matters.
today, mimmles is 10 yrs old.
*calculates in head: std4.. std4.. yup 10 yrs old*
hehe we had pizza instead of her bday cake,
and her friend Grace stayed over yday night
to celebrate today with her.
mum got mi a pair of shoes cum roller-blades
that cost RM299 (!!!!!!!)
which makes u look as tho u're sliding all over the floor.
God bless u, mi, and Happy Birthday!

mm mmm mmmm..

exams are next week and i barely noe nethin
apart from d definition of kuantiti fizik and kuantiti asas..

started on the easter rally banner today and
so far it looks pretty...
ugly.

haven't managed to study at all today
unless i count listenin to liz readin aloud from my physics text..

dad's air-conditioner has its flipper
cellotaped so that the cold air will blow straight..

my nails need cutting..

liz thinks computers are taking over the world
bcoz of a gross misconception
that kazaa lets other ppl view the files in our computer..

tian an's feet are larger than mine (despite his size!)
and resemble feet of those of a hobbits'.

life's just peachy, ain't it :P

WAHAHAHHAHAHAH!!!
theory is OVER!!
no more sotto voce!
no more contrapuntal style of writing!
no more melodic intervals!
no more enharmonic equivalents!
no more chordal accompaniments!

muahahhahaha...
relief has never felt so delicious!
*GRINZ MANIACALLY*
esp since i might have a chance to pass after all!

to all u ppl out there who prayed for me:
THANK U SOOOO MUCH!!!
U ALL ROCK!!
and He does too!!
may He bless the shoes off you!

and to my favorite ppl:
liz and cow,

-God must have spent a little more time on u-
in all creation, big things and small
u are the one that surpasses them all.

i will nvr understand how u two can bear with me :P
thank u
soo much for being there for me and with me
despite my sordid bitchiness
during this interval of stress from hell :)
u guys have no idea just how great u are.
God really must've spent a little more time on you two.
i really really thank u ...
for being so wonderful
and for being part of my life :)

according to pui mun,
the way i go about answering question 2
for my abrsm theory paper is nearly completely wrong.
and that question takes up 25 marks.
the last time i finished a paper
for my teacher to mark,
i just barely passed by 2 marks.
questions 4 and 5 still require me to
memorise a whole shitload of formulas
and musical terms.
to top that all off with some serious icing,
my abrsm theory of music exam is tomorrow
MORNING.
whoop-de-doo.

so now i suppose it's just a matter
of whether i'm going to flunk gracefully or not.

to all u compassionate ppl who have nth better to do...
do pray and keep ur fingers crossed for me, k?
really, i beseech you.
God bless.

the Baroque era was during the early 18th century
and can be easily recognised by its
nearly complete lack of dynamic markings
and unique contrapuntal style of writing.
some of the more reknowned composers
of the said era would be ...
damn i can't remember.

studied theory earlier and i'm glad to say that
most of it managed to worm itself into my brain :)
at the rate this is going i'll prolly pass after all hehe.
this only further proves my point that
theory and drama do not go well together
bcoz drama prac today was cancelled :P

today's been fun...
finally decided to get off my bum
and help bing with the class board.
she is SO set on winnin that competition LoLz :P
so now we have a little... jungle-lookin thing
at the back of the class,
complete with vines and coconut leaves and all.
i'd say we stand a chance *grin*
there're even kuala bears hanging from the vines
for goodness' sake.

and today, i learned how to sing scales
without making any noise at all.
i also learned how it would be like
to be a frog.
bcoz now, all that can be emitted from my throat
are either barely comprehensible croaks,
or squeaks so high that u can barely make them out.
yup, i am so officially sick :)

drama and theory do not go well together.
drama was this afternoon and theory is...

well i haven't really done any theory... yet heh.

see what i mean?
you simply can't have both of them in the same day.

my head's kinda swimmy atm so this will be boring.
i have a running nose and a sore throat.
i think i'm gettin sick.
theory takes too much effort and so i am ignoring it for now.
earlier today after practise, i was in my dad's office
and in a very dramatic (it just figures) mood to boot.
went around yabbering away in japanese
and getting away with murder
bcoz i could make jap words up on the spot
and deliver them all in a very convincing jap slang.
sugoi desu ka?
*beam*

after getting tired of speaking gibberish
to a bunch of ppl who'd given up tryin to fathom me and my big mouth,
i reverted to speaking in the age-old
snotty british accent
in front of dad and his friend.
hehehe now That was fun.
dad told me i was exasperating
and his friend looked utterly lost for words.
i don't think he's ever heard me
utter more than a "hullo" and "goodbye".

being snotty is fun when ur sposed to flaunt it.
ask Mrs. Sybil Birling (urs truly) of the play "An Inspector Calls" :P
apparently on the day itself
i've to wear this fancy black nightgown complete with pearls
and an oriental fan to flip and flap about occassionally
as i strut to and fro across the stage.
how totally utterly drooll hehe.

cow showed me just a wee ickle bit
of whut he's gonna do with my blog and it's all kewl :P
thank u so so so much, ushi! *hugglez and cuddlez and mmmmmmmmmmmuakz!*
and nyah! to all u ppl hu are pukin out there :P

mm.. which reminds me.
cf today was subdued coz
wye lynn's grandma just passed away.
she was sayin that her grandma wud b in heaven tho
coz during her last week she accepted Him
and that's good :)
we sang amazing grace.
and i don't think i noe any song
sadder or any more graceful than that.
i've nvr sung the whole song before.
today was my first time and u noe wut?
it is a lovely song.

and u noe sth else?
cow's grandma is sick atm...
and it all sounds too cliche-like and familiar for comfort.
so... pray for him and his grandma, k?
or at least... just keep ur fingers crossed.

contrary to wut marcus told me 3 days ago,
the back-up modem is not spoilt.
which is really good news
coz otherwise my dad'll just about slaughter him :P

this month's gonna be one of the busiest i've ever lived to see.
1. the ABRSM theory exam is in a week,
and i'm going to flunk unless i do sth very drastic about it;
2. the SCHOOL exams are in a couple of weeks,
and i hardly noe squat (kimia SUUUUCKS!!!);
3. mr. william offered me an 'important' role
in the interschool drama competition thing,
and since it'd be a waste of an opportunity if i didn't take him up on it,
i am now up to my NECK in practises & practises @_@;
4. liz and i are next month's easter rally publicity managers
and we still have NO posters and NO banner.

i gez i'm actually complainin to flaunt, really.
being so busy makes me feel important and high-up in sum way :P
i've nvr been involved in so many things at the same time before.
the drama thing made me feel really kewl,
coz from wut sum ppl told me,
mr. william'd sorta reserved that role for me.
i'm sposed to be a rich arrogant woman,
...which i'm not sure whether
is a particularly flattering part to play :P
but it's all good fun hehe.

oooh! and i've gotten contacts now!
no more glasses! HEEE!!!
i nvr knew how much of an inconvenience
wearing glasses could be.
tho i say so myself, i think i look pretty good spec-less *GRIN*
lookin in the mirror wif my contacts on
yday was a new experience for me coz
i've nvr thot that i look like that.
it's all kewlkewlkewlkewlkewl :)

WHOOOOOAaa..
it's been ages since i've been on.
so much so that my head's already spinnin
from staring at the com for like, 1/2 hr O_o"
then again that could be bcoz
i've been utterly wringing my brains out all day
on theory of music grade 6 ABRSM examination papers
of the year 2001.
I SWEAR, PAPER B SUCKED AAAAAAAAASSSS!!!
feelin kinda lightheaded now.
can't blog much.
just wanna make known my (not so) great comeback.
hehe, so BOO everybody!