zyrk's blog v2 has been up for like a week now
thanks to braden hu has so nicely
come to my aid at last :)
still got lotsa bugs to work out,
but i think this beats the old one.
do share ur (constructive) opinions :)
e-mail/msg/sth!
n dun complain bout d pic,
coz it's my room!
u can see buddy and bolstie in the bg hehe
promise will get a better pic soon enuff.

anyway
to blog about my entire week wud b boring
so i'll just wrap it all up as neatly as possible.

coolest stuff bout this week:
is that... (are u ready?)
1. i won last saturday's dream star preliminary!
and am goin to the semifinals!
!
2. studied an hour everyday for d last 3 days *GRIN*
congratulate me!
3. had CG today and had fun as assistant cell leader
4. edufair's gotten me interested in my future.
given me more initiative to get a scholarship.
i reeeaally wanna draw the way those guys can.

not-so-cool stuff bout this week:
1. can't perform gollum tml
coz i'm goin to my dad's cuz's weddin in melaka *sniff*
2. can't go to church tml
reason ditto.
3. can't go seafield's I.U. tml
reason ditto.
4. have been attendin 2 extra tuition classes
(but it's not so bad really, d teachers are pretty damned good)
5. have to find a costume to wear for GOLLUM *freaks*
coz d semifinals are comin up.
wut'm i gonna do?! stuff dirt in my mouth,
pull out all my hair n go about topless?! ack.

yday was 1 of the best days of my life
went to cheras to visit my grand-uncle.
he's got a huge tumor growing out of the side of his neck
wif lots of evil-smelling blood-colored pus oozing out of it
and soakin up the back of his shirt.
he sez he's gonna die on tuesday.

no, trust me,
it was one of the best days of my life.
there were a whole bunch of relatives there too.
(the odd thing bout my grand-uncle's family
is that 1/2 the fam's staunch christians and the other 1/2 staunch bhuddists)
my dad's cousin came not long after we arrived.
i've only ever met him once
and i could barely recognise him yday.
the very 1st thing he sed when he saw us was:
"Praise the Lord! You're all here!"

accing to my dad and mum,
he's been thru all sorts of shit.
every business he had a hand in failed miserably,
his wife was a extravagant and spoilt witch
and he'd tried to take advantage of dad a few times.
he sed he'd been thru times so bad
that he'd seriously contemplated suicide.

but yday, he was a changed man.
mum and dad were amazed.
he was jolly and concerned and full of friendly openness.
his name is no longer dexter low,
but joseph low.
he is no longer part of failing businesses
but is involved in sum potential multi-millionaire oil venture.
he sed that God'd told him to change his name
and to go to kelantan.

later in the car,
dad told me that my grand-uncle juz accepted christ
the day before.
he wanted to be buried next to his wife
and his wife was a christian you see.

i don't noe how sincere he was when he sed the sinner's prayer,
but for sum reason i feel sure he'll go to heaven :)
felt freakin hyppy over everything,
i mean, i had 2 great testimonies in less than 1/2 hr!


things got better and better and better.
bcoz liz was still stuck at tuit
and i was still in cheras,
dad had to fetch me to church instead.
for sum reason i felt really glad for that.
like just by sendin me there
they're a wee bit closer to Him.
*shrugs & grinz*

went for bible-knowledge alone 1/2 hr late
but din miss nethin much.
met jamie, tian an and yi kinn
after class and was really happy to see them.
yu xuan msged sayin he was there already
and we found him in the court.
1/2 thought that most ppl we invited
weren't gonna turn up
so it was all very hyppifying.

later, when worship was starting,
i saw somebody emerge from the entrance.
somebody wearing a very familiar hawaiian shirt.
somebody whose hair stood up like the quills of a porcupine.
somebody who walked in that certain way.
a bespectacled somebody.
and i shrieked in delight.
he'd sed he was goin to melaka to see his grandma.

then, i saw a couple more ppl
following that bespectacled somebody.
somebody who looked remarkably like suan aik
and another who looked (even more) remarkably like that bespectacled somebody.
and i shrieked even more :P
we all took up an entire row of seats
and had to move many many times
bcoz we din have a specific cell group.

jane called 1/2way thru worship.
went down to the dream centre to bring kelv and her up.
so now we took up nearly more than a row.
and liz wasn't even there yet.
got a msg halfway thru service from her sayin:
boo, krys. look up.
turned round, looked up and saw her grinnin at me.
i tell you it was wonderful :)
haven't had so many frenz come to church
altogether in one go before and it was great!

hong talked SO MUCH durin service
that i cudnt absorb much,
but i was too happy to pay much attention neway.
hong, btw, is adorably cute.
cudnt help punching him each time i saw him :P
they look SO much alike!
same cheekbones same eyes same shape of the face.
hehehehe!
to have 2 cows there at the same time
was beyond hyppifying
*sheepish grin*

after service was the dream star competition.
i was one of the contestants.
i'd only written my script the day before.
i hadnt memorized it yet.
i was freakin out like crazy.
went jabberin on and on tryin to remember the script.
was actually trembling bcoz i was so nervous.

my turn came and i did my thing.
and i believe i did good !
the audience roared when smeagol announced that he attended church.
they squealed wif laughter when smeagol sed his frenz
from church taught him how to sing amazing grace.
and they cheered when he prayed for jesus to make gollum leave him alone.
overshot the time-limit by a bit,
but liz gave me a 9/10,
cow sed it was flawless,
and i found out dat nobody knew i'd forgotten my lines a few times.
afterward, ppl i didn't noe even came up to me
and told me i did very well :P

to top it all off,
cow cuddled me from behind
after the competition and kissed my cheek.
felt very very very very very hyppy indeed

my grand-uncle was saved;
my dad's cousin blessed by God;
dad and mum haf begun to believe that there is sth to christianity;
they fetched me to church;
yu xuan, jamie, yi kinn, tian an, suan aik,
cow, hong, jane, kelv and liz were there;
got to noe jamie and hong a lil better :) ;
and the unpractised gollum was a major success.
how much greater could my day get?!

thank you so much, Jesus :)

i shall be bloggin 1 freakin long testimony,
but i'll try my very best keep it short.
but before i start,
go check this out!
methinks this blog'll get a new look reli soon
neway:

yday liz n i finally got back the money
we spent for the easter rally
from pn joyce.
for sum reli odd but kewl reason,
i had 51 extra bucks!
the extra cash was a pleasant suprise
so i wanted to go celebrate
after skewl wif him.

went to mv feeling all (happy+hyper=) hyppy.
went into every single girly shop there was to coo at the soft toys.
but then...
liz msged cow.
she sed mum was lookin for me.
and was seriously pissed.

msged mum immediately and told her i was in the library
revising addmath with frenz and pls pls dun be angry
and that i'd call her soon as i can,
"pls dun call now coz teachers are around."
grabbed a taxi and got to skewl in 15 minutes.

ran all the way into skewl.
shoelaces kept coming untied.
kept stopping for breath.
went grabbing all the public phones off their hooks
and punching in numbers like crazy.
but
none of them worked.

ran from one phone to another
wif my shoelaces flippin and flinging all over the place.
started slamming fists unto the phones even.
finally one miraculously started workin.
dialled mum's number.
asked her whether she'd come to skewl lookin for me.
answer: yes.

she wasn't coming back to skewl to pick me,
she sed.
she was sick of being my driver and having to wait on my every beck and call,
she sed.
you can forget ever staying back again,
she sed.
go get a taxi,
she sed,
coz i'm nvr going to fetch you after skewl again.
and then
i ran out of coins.

burst into tears.
u dont need to noe wut else happened.
cow offered to take me home by bus.
and so we went.
bought an ice-cream and cheered up considerably.
walked to the bus stop and got on the bus.

halfway to ss2,
mum msged cow's phone
and sed she was waiting outside skewl.
called her to tell her i was on the bus
and she asked with who.
told her "cow"
and she slammed down the phone.

got to ss2.
bought cow's belated xmas present
on the way home.
waited in front of house
coz kak wasnt in.
decided she musta gone to walk mi to tuition.
then,
mum called again.
asked where were we
and sed she'd gotten kak to wait at the ss2 bus stop for us.
slammed down the phone again.

walked to the bus stop to find kak
and it started raining 1/2way.
went back to get an umbrella.
walked back to the bus stop in the rain.
he held the umbrella.
wudda been romantic if not for the given circumstance.
found kak and she told us she'd been waitin for 2-3 hrs.
went home at last and bathed while cow got a taxi.
cow left the moment i got out of the shower.
nvr got to thank him properly.

called liz and asked her to pray.
she told me wut else my mum had told her when she'd called.
sed mum was talking about boyfriends
and 4am phone calls
and how i spend too much time on the phone and the com.
my ayi'd squealed on me.
i practically freaked out.
thought death was certain.
prayed and prayed and prayed and prayed and prayed.

then when mum got home.
she ignored me.
she pretended not to be angry all the way till this morning.
even then it was about sth else altogether.
and here's where the totally amazing part comes:

today after skewl.
she wasn't angry at all.
gave me a reload coupon
and pocket money
w/o me asking.
which has nvr happened before,
ever.
and she was in a pretty good mood all the way
...until 5 minutes ago,
but that's a different story.

so i ask you,
duz He rock or wut?

and i ask you,
do i have the best bf in the world or wut?
he nvr even complained or was remotely upset
even ONCE.

thank u so much for being such a wonderful blankie :)
i love you, ushi.

i've nvr attended an event as horribly disorganised as yday's I.U.
the entire thing was utterly odious.
the script liz and i slaved over was barely used at ALL
coz the agenda was completely screwed up.

the opening act was switched with the opening ceremony.
dickson's duet with jia heng was delayed till after the cheerleaders
but later cancelled altogether.
the band "john's mistress" was expelled from school compounds
for sporting inappropriate hairstyles and clothes
and left the intermission open and bare.
suan aik's band "in between" had to fill in
and left another part of the agenda gaping.
the refreshments were eaten not after the I.U. but during the intermission.
then 1/4 of the audience disappeared after the intermission altogether.

liz and i had to resort to talking about the QM's orange shirts
and how wonderful tan lin looked
and how beeeg our school was
and how sorry we were for causing so much inconvenience
and how much we appreciated their puttin up wif us
and how the chairs were not for the air, but for their bottoms.
i wanted to go home and die of mortification.
how we ever pulled it off is beyond my imagination.

during the 1st half of the I.U.,
cow got a call from his dad
sayin that "today might be the last time u'll see ur grandma".
he left for melaka before the I.U. even ended.
suan aik and zcui ffked and didn't turn up for church at all.

cant remember any other time
quite as roller-coaster-like as yday.
i should've been as moody as hell,
but for sum reason, at the end of the day i was alright.

cow gave me the mysterious object at last.
and it's a cd :)
of a whole bunch of the loveliest songs.
he actually made the cover and wrote down the lyrics and everything.
hafnt had the chance to hear everything
coz i left it in liz's bag,
and i can't wait to get it back.

he msged later sayin that his grandma hadnt gone yet,
but i think... the end isnt far off for her.
or for my uncle either.
mum and dad went to visit him today.
he only has a few months more,
accing to the doc.
my grandma isn't well-off either atm :/
suddenly death seems to be everywhere.
the worst thing is that all these ppl
dont have the reassurance of heaven.

on to lighter topics.
read the bible yday and found out
dat the garden of eden is actually in iraq.
genesis chapter 2 sed there was a river
that split into 4 other rivers,
2 of which were the tigris and the euphrates.
ironic really,
coz i cant think of a place less like eden than iraq is today.

read tian an's book earlier about a love worth giving.
the book's based on verses 1 cor 13:4-8
and is pretty good.
love is patient, love is kind.
it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
it is not rude, it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
it always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, always perseveres.
love never fails.

it opened up alot of windows
and... made me wanna be good :P
or in this case,
it made me wanna love hehe.

mum wuznt too keen on seeing me reading it tho.
sed god cudnt help me if i didn't get good results
and yada-yada.
the meanie threatened to ban me from church even.
made a pretense of revisin bio in front of her later after that.

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hafnt had fun bloggin today.
not sure why.
thoughts seem to be swimmin in all directions.
i cant find a flow.

mm...
u noe wut?
i miss cow.
dumbass had to harbor a secret keyboard
and get himself grounded.
i miss him.
happy easter, ppl.
i'm gonna call him :P

tired.
spent 4++ hours on and off
discussin the I.U. emcee script for tml
with liz on the phone
and another 5++ hours on and off
typing away at the computer.
mood was horribly sour.
actually slammed phone down on zcui
*wince*

have to wear formal clothes tml.
gonna go in red collar wif black tie and pants.
new contacts hafnt arrived
so i'll have to be a nerd for yet another day.
goin church afterward.
will need the relaxation wif Him and him.

cow sez he's givin me sth he made tml.
sez it's an emoticon.
sez it can be played.
sez it can be opened up to read.
have no idea wut it is.
gonna have to find out for myself in a few hours.

liz finally got friendsters
after getting rid of her cookie problem.
had to send emcee script to her thru hotmail
just a coupla minutes ago
coz her antivirus program duznt like me.
gonna turn in after this.
good night.

i didn't think we wud do particularly well
for the bintang audition.
and... i wasn't wrong.
in fact, it was the worst singin performance
any of us have ever had.
it reeked so bad that even now as i think about it,
i dunno whether to laugh bcoz the whole thing sucked like dry crap,
or cry coz we were just so tragic.

pui mun'd helped us transpose
the song to a higher key so we cud match the pitch,
but we played the wrong version of the song.
in the end,
we managed with the untransposed version,
in the wrong beat, wrong key and with sum seriously bad singin.
it was so so so so so ABYSMAL.
the crowd didn't even noe whether or not to clap.
total mortification.
thank God cow left before our performance.

liz and jane threw fits after the thing.
liz went screamin and jumpin up and down
yellin about how bad we sucked to nebody hu wud listen
and jane was all sour and irritated.
in fact i think she might've cried about it
coz her eyeliner had gone all smeary.
haha.
i dun blame them :P

my solo went well, i think.
i didn't embarrass nor disappoint myself
even tho i did muck up a couple of keys.
but all in all i think the audience liked it :)
so this is a small oasis of solace
in our vast sands of humiliation.

neway, regarding my
list of stuff to get back to:
1. fuzzy cow i drew
2. IU emcee-ing
3. mum
4. results
5. resolutions...
i'll keep it brief.

drew a fuzzy cow too freakin cute to be true yday :)
went around makin delighted squeaky noises
everytime i looked at it hehe.
plannin to introduce it to my blog sumday.
it has to get the recognition it deserves


liz n i are gonna be the emcees for this sat's IU.
initially planned to do it impromptu
but since lucinda'd freaked at hearin we didn't have a script today...
i guess that's outta the question.

bcoz i got 27 for addmath,
41 for sej (I DIDN'T FAIL!!!!)
48 for bio etc etc.
mum has been gettin on my case everyday.
everytime she's reminded of my results
and my lack of studyin,
she just goes nagging n nagging on n on n on
and ends up ignoring me for the rest of the day.

sucks
coz i'd forgotten how it used to be like
to listen to her drag all the skeletons
out of my closet.
sucks
coz i dun like havin her so upset with me.
sucks most
that i lost my cool a few times
and was actually quite rude to her.

hence my list of renewed resolutions:
1. to be more patient in wtv i do
2. to think before i speak
3. nvr be rude to nebody nor hurt nebody's feelings
4. not to be selfish
5. put family above everything else ('cept Him)
6. get A's in everything but BC next term
7. to actually properly read the bible everyday

in weeks or mebbe months to come
i shall read this again
and i will noe if i have been committed to my list or not.
mm...
this is only the 1st out of several i have made before
and still i remain at the drawing board.
self-improvement sure isn't easy.

just went to see rach's blog
to vote for her prettiest frenz,
and WHOA she's gotta have the most chunted bunch of frenz ever.
all good lookin and talented.
i swear it,
go to the bottom of my blog
and look for rachel's.

bintang audition's tml, bleh.
not lookin fwd to it at all.
i can already forsee ppl boo-ing us off the stage.
and i shudda known betta
than to have chosen a guy song for my solo.
prayer... need lotsa prayer...

got lotsa stuff i wanted to blog about
but i gtg,
so i'll just make a short list of stuff to get back to:
1. fuzzy cow i drew
2. IU emcee-ing
3. mum
4. results
5. resolutions

til then,
pls do NOT come to witness
our likely public humiliation tml.

thank you, cow, for everything yday :)
there's just sth bout ur face...
or the stuff u say and do.
very happifyin 1 :)
*guh etit etit n skaum skaum skaumm!*


finally got down to a practise of sum sort today.
and since ppl haven't sed that we suck,
i gez we still stand a sort-of-chance.

gonna be singin what makes u different
for my solo
and i hope i pull it off.
i have this (bad?) habit of twisting the original tune of any song
into a version of my own
so now i have to learn and remember the original :P

did my est and english paper today
in the library with tian an and ming sern.
had lotsa fun composing
the "friends of the earth" global warming speech
for est hehe.

friends! malaysians! countrymen!
lend me your ears!
i come here today not to reproach you of your sinful wrongdoings
but to invite you to a lifestyle
that will surely help in saving our Mother the Earth.
i beseech you!
pay vigilance to and weigh
my every word,
for if we do not cease and desist exulting
in our petty luxuries as we do today,
we shall all be another sure step closer to an earthly hell!

i'm actually quite proud of it.
i'll post the real thing here when i get it back :P

the audition's on thurs
and we've barely managed to agree on a song.
cui, bing and jane are too busy
to do anything apart from makin promises
coz of their IU this sat.
2 days to practise.
haha.
hahahaha.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
i'm wonderin if we pull out will i still get a refund.

[after readin sum blogs,
i realised that i'd forgotten all about ching ming.
so here's my belated post.]

i nvr reli enjoy ching ming.
mostly coz of all the smoke and glarin sun.
n bcoz my great-grandpa was buried on top of a hill in johor...
and my great-grandma at the very bottom...
and my grandpa in the graveyard next door...
and my grandma in melaka...
well, we have alot of moving around to do.

i think i'm sposed to feel all solemn and sad
when i look at their graves...
but i dont noe any of the ppl whom i visit on ching ming,
so i dun feel nethin but frustration at the weather and bugs.
whut reli saddens me tho,
is seeing forgotten graves.

some ppl obviously spend tons of money
primpin up their ancestors' graves so that they'll look big and new,
but some ppl just as obviously do not care at all.
when i see a small, cracked and crumbling gravestone
upon which there were once carved chinese characters
in memory of somebody who was once upon a time alive and loved,
next to a big, fashionably tiled grave
with a bold, golden epitaph deeply carved into the stone,
i feel so sad.
it makes me wonder if the person in the little grave
was forgotten by all his uncaring relatives,
or just not loved at all.
or mebbe... all his relatives had passed away too..
that's just as sad.

i used to want to be cremated
after i die,
but bcoz i am a believer in Him
i'm sposed to have a proper Christian burial.
i've nvr seen a christian graveyard before...
and i'm afraid... that my family might not be buried with me.
i don't want to buried there alone
if my descendants will not care
to visit my grave once a yr in the least.
i noe that nth will be left of me on earth but my body
coz my soul shud be in heaven...
but i don't want nebody to see
an old crumbling gravestone whom nobody cares to visit
that has my name and epitaph on it.

u noe...
i do not fear death when i am ..good
coz i believe that then, He is with me.
i really honestly believe that
bcoz i can feel it.
but i've been backslidin lately
and now,
thinkin of how things will/might be after i die
scares me.

dear God...
help me be strong in my faith in Christ.
help me not to stray away from you.
i pray that i will see all of my family in heaven.
i pray that none of us will fear death or what comes after it
bcoz of our deep-seated belief and love for you.
please, dear God,
in Jesus' most precious name i pray,
Amen.

btw,
pls excuse the emot-fetish hehe.
i'll grow over it soon,
i promise.

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1st off:
thank u God
for keepin the modem/router
safe and sound from the storm.
coz i dun see how else it cudda
survived w/o u playin a part hehe.

was usin it during the thunderstorm this afternoon
until a blackout shorted out everythin.
talk about risk :P
nvr tryin that again or cus'll kill me.

had the easter rally today
and it was a success :D

so many ppl turned up!
and i believe most of them left
having learnt sth new.
some 20 ppl actually accepted christ!
i dun think we expected that many :)
mel was 1 of them hehe.
din noe she'd nvr sed the prayer before,
so it was a kewl suprise :P

had fun wif liz, cow and sonic
later after that
discussin rioting and future biz ventures.
we went staring and pointing
at the floor in front of the pejabat
for sometime today
and it actually seemed to work :P

ppl looked really curious
and kept craning their necks to see.

imagine gettin a whole crowd,
say a hundred ppl...
to surround and stare at pn felicia's car and keep sayin:
"ooooooh..." and "aaaaahhh..."
hehehe fun!
must actually get round to doin just that sumday.
that evil nemesis needs sum reckonin wif.
must find her car!


muahahaha!

HOLY COW IT WORKS!
WHAHAHHAHAHAHHAH!
now this is wayyyy kewl :D
get the damned prog
i swear it rocks!
been tinkerin with it on and off all day hehe.

testing testing...

u noe,
i doubted the popswatter thing at first.
but now,
i am totally in love with it
*beam*
u hear me?
in LOVE.
muahahhahaha...
i have not had a single pop-up
ever since i installed it :D

to beat it all,
it makes this swattin sound that sounds
remarkably like a fart
whenever it gets rid of a pop-up.
hehehe
now is that kewl, or what?

i just got hold of this really
fantabulous web url.

http://buddies.smileycentral.com/

my cursor is now an animated running doggy
and before that it was a greenade.
the prog even came with a pop-up ad swatter!
and screensavers and a HELLOTTA emots!
heee so happy hehe :P

Go and GET IT!
No regrets 1, i promise :P
and the dl's really quick too.
it installed before i even knew it had started dling.
*GRINZ*