exams are OOOOOVVEEEERR!!!
hehe so happy!
i'm so happy that
i'm happy beyond happy!!!

mum got some nokia starlight cinema tickets,
and a bunch of us (i hope)
are goin to watch
the day after tomorrow
tomorrow night!
(heh, that was.. confusin)
s'been so long since i've gone out!!
*beams happily*
wif mum's persmission neway hehe.
i really really hope it works out...
lotsa ppl can't seem to make it
either coz of transport probs
or parents *sniffs at liz*

sold some leftover tickets to yan yee
coz her CG's wants to watch tml too.
sold them to her at RM10/ticket heh.
but 1 ticket admits 2,
so RM5/person la.
liz sed i shudn't,
but i still feel kinda bad.
it's as tho i'm rippin' her off..!
but i really need the cash!!!
muz buy her a drink someday to make up heh.

neway,
i still have enuff leftovers
for another 4 or 5 ppl,
anybody out there who'd like to watch a movie
under romantic starlight?
please please tag me! :P
they expire on the 10th of july.

cus had report card day today,
and for a wonder,
he didn't get into trouble :)
prayin pays off.
teachers were so nice...
they sed he didn't pay much attention in class
and that his homework was incomplete
and extremely irregular,
but that he'd improved quite abit :)
ms. jeannie sed soo many nice things about him,
it totally warmed our hearts :)

mum was so cheerful after that,
that she wanted to buy us pizza :P
pity cus and i didn't have the appetite, really.
hehe, feelin very bubbly and happy.
love it when it feels this way.

*beams*
told you i felt a change of templates was needed.
when the yr-end hols come,
i'm gonna get photoshop and a HTML for Dummies book.
can't depend on blogskins and cow forever :P

phys amali on my lap...
hehe damn it's so easy to ignore a book,
but ur conscience can really eat u up,
u noe?
better pray hard tonight hehe.

mum fed me some chinese medicine today.
the kind u get in a little round plastic ball,
those little round dark pills.
and damn i've nvr had pms this heavy before!!!
nor stomach cramps that've lasted
this long...
i wonder if this is for the worse
or the better.

bc was suspiciously ok...
but then again,
i can nvr tell whether it's a hard paper or not.
too zha ledi :P
really about time i bucked up.

long kai-ed wif liz and jane after recess
in front of the toilet at the silk road.
was reminded of how stupid and fun
girltalk can be :)
yakked about questions
we'd ask when checkin out a guy,
whether kelv and cow were good kissers,
about posing with ferraris in hongkong
and how a boyfriend usually has a cuter friend
etc etc.
roflmao!

i love being a girl.
s'just the pmssy part i abhor.

been tryin to turn the cursor
for my blog into a cow all afternoon.
but still, to no avail.
*sigh*
took forever to realise that the file
had to be a .cur or .ani file
before it cud work as a cursor.
downloaded sum cursor file export thing
after hours of hunting,
and thank God, it worked.
only now i lack a server which allows me to host
.cur or .ani files
4 hours!
took 4 stinkin hours!!
to try and turn that stoopid white arrow into a cow,
only to realise i'm gonna flunk chinese tml.
*snarls*

oh well.
'least i learnt sth today.

chem and moral sucked today.
have lost nearly all initiave
and motivation to study anymore.
2 more days...
chinese and est tml...
phys and bio day after...
ah phooey.

feel a change of templates comin on again.
saw this really cute pink bunny template
on blogskins but it had liz's name printed in bold all over it.
it wudn't do to have two bunnies online :P
oh well, i'll find 1 soon.
exams will be over by wed after all *grinz*

went to cheer 2004 today.
and it wasn't too bad.
it was actually quite an experience.
the uniforms, pompoms, overly perky girls,
bouncing ponytails, banners, jien from the disney channel
(damned, he's actually good lookin irl)
and so on.
our school messed up pretty badly...
but for 3 months' worth of practise
it was quite good la.
they fell more than a couple of times
while doing the stunts
and they held up "Calyx!" on a cardboard
upside down.
*wince*
that had to hurt the most.
and i'm still not sure if the cheerleaders noe.

haven't touched chem nor moral
and the exams are tomorrow.
*groanz*
curse tan lin, i say.
that woman is evil.
i wonder how many have sworn their curses
upon her already.
she's gotta have loads of bad karma
heapin up on her by now.
can't she feel it??
can't she cease and desist?!
*tears at hair*

oh btw luke,
if u're readin this,
i saw u doin that crazy john travolta dance today!
or at least,
i'm quite positive that was u ^^
u really loved the attention, dincha?
*grin*

u noe
the little post-count thingy
on ur blogger dashboard?
well, mine's gonna read 100
right after i publish this post :)
hehe, 100 posts!
my 1st 3-digit number.
6 months after i 1st started bloggin.
wut alot i've had to say, huh :P

i heard ps. joshua quote proverbs before.
it was about how a wise man stayed silent,
and that even fools are thought to be wise
if they keep their mouths shut.
and i guess it's pretty true.
my old tuition teacher was a staunch bhuddist,
and she used to say too,
that we were given a pair of ears,
a pair of eyes, a pair of hands and legs,
but only 1 mouth.
she sed that's bcoz our mouth is the most
destructive thing we posess.
and i guess that's pretty true too.

so, considering that
i've been bloggin so magnimously,
i must be 1 kind of a fool :P
it hurts abit.
but just abit :P

exams haven't gone too badly so far.
i noe i'm gonna improve this term,
just mebbe not for malay or physics
*winces*

NiE's finally done and over with :)
we submitted the final copy today
(another 48 bucks burnt *double-wince*)
coz we made it for grand level judging!
i noe we'll win something,
we can't NOT :P

life's beginnin to have more of a purpose now.
mum told me some stuff that i cudn't ignore,
so i'm not.
wut she told me
wasn't very happifyin,
but it's about time i embrace reality
and engage it in a headlock.

sej is actually kinda interestin.
it's like readin the bible,
only nth's about Jesus :P
1 more week
and all this will be over.
muahaha.
i so can't wait :P

i've already told this
to every1 i've talked to so far ^^
so the novelty has sort of worn off.
but wut the heck,
this is worth bloggin about :P

i've got Gmail!!
apparently active members of blogger
are invited to try out the beta testing
for Google's new e-mail program.
the funny thing is
i've beein seeing that "Want Gmail?"
notice on the sidebar of my blogger dashboard
for nearly a month now :P
and i always thot it was just some ad.

read TheStar's Intech section yday tho
and found out how coveted Gmail was
and how much ppl are willin to do to get an invite.
so i went to blog today and finally clicked on that "ad"
and got a Gmail account.
muahahah this is so funny :P
there's actually a whole webbie
for ppl who don't want their invites
or are able to send invites
(i'm not 1 of them VV")
and for ppl who want the invites.
go check gmailswap out,
it's really comical wut ppl will do
for a 1GB e-mail account :P

by the by,
email me!!!
at kwiwa.wiwa@gmail.com ^^
can't wait to receive mail from ppl hehe.

hm hm.
enuff of the NiE,
exams are here.
passed up a half-baked copy
of our paper
coz cik leela wudn't accept a new 1.
but wtvla.
if we're not chosen
to compete for the grand prize,
it's their loss ^^
we'll prolly still get the free coupons
and pizza neway *grinz*

the only significant exams
i've had recently wud be yday's bio
and today's chem 3.
think i did pretty well for bio.
but these feelings are deceiving...
i thot i did well for chem today too,
but it turns out i mixed up the pembolehubahs VV"
and wrote down the wrong takat peleburan.
stupid 1.
everybody told me it wudn't come out *sulk*
stupid stupid dumdum.
gone is my jadual,
gone is my graph.
but oh well.
'least this term's gonna be better
than my last ^^

1 thing tho.
i'm gonna need lotsa lotsa lotsa
lotsa lotsa lotsa lotsa sleep
after these 10 days of exams.
God bless everybody!
tembak well,
and make sure u check all ur pembolehubahs!
*sniffs discreetly*

tian an sez my blog has of late,
been incredibly ungodly.
and i so agree ^^
but today's post will be diff.

took study leave today,
only i've been doin everythin
except studyin ^^
i've finally caught up on all the sleep
i have not been having
due to all sorts of reasons.

liz, goeh kien, yi kinn and nigel
were the productive ones of our NiE today.
liz went around askin a billion teachers
for the ed board room key
coz hui lynn, suan aik, chau sean
and nebody else hu had the key didn't come.
liz told me all this on the phone.
it was sooo great!
God has seriously blessed us all.
the teachers thought we HAD to use the ed room
bcoz mr william wanted us to
or that ours was the only paper
that had to be passed up today or sth,
and so they went thru almost even more trouble
than them just to get the key for us.

they pontenged all day inside the ed board room
just so they could perfect the NiE
the way liz and i wanted.
and now, according to goeh kien,
everything is finished except for the printing part.
^^
i am SOO HAPPY!

i feel as tho i've given birth
to a beautiful beautiful baby
(well, that i've yet to decide)
after lugging it around and lettin it torture me
all throughout its pregnancy.
or sum crap like that ^^
hehehe so happy!
so so so so so so so happy!
john's mistress complied
coz they thot we were from the star itself;
the QM complied givin us the entire sports results
coz they thot we were from the ed board;
and now 90% of the world complies
coz they thought our NiE was incredibly important.
and we only gabbled off a few prayers thruout!

so, trust me:
prayer is a very powerful thing :)
God bless everybody!
muahah i'm so happy!

yday nite,
cow told me
that i hold grudges.
and i believe he's right.
coz i can remember horrid stuff
that ppl've done to me
all the way back from std 6.
and i've been griping about the NiE
ever since last weekend.
and unless we finish the fickin thing soon,
or win some award for it,
i'll prolly hold this grudge
for life.

yi kinn passed all the work
over to nigel today coz he sed he had to study.
at the time, nigel had nth on his hands
but a whole bunch of half-baked
instructions.
i fretted all the way till after skewl
when liz and i managed to send him
everything we had of importance.
spent my entire afternoon
sittin at the com
in my uniform, no less,
the moment i got home from tuit.
just so that i cud make sure
he was doin his job.
i haven't eaten dinner.

after not being able
to rearrange the stuff on page 3
coz there wasnt enuff space
for the articles to breathe,
he rushed off to tuit.
and msged goeh kien telling him
that he
quit
and that he was
fed up.
so now, yi kinn is helping us again.

if i weren't so weary by now,
i'd be literally ablaze in fury.

but anyway,
wut i wanna blog about today
is me.
over the last few years,
i've learnt that
i am full of personality disorders.
or wtv u wanna call them.
constant moodswings,
sulkiness, grudges, selfishness,
impatience, snappiness,
laziness etc etc etc.
and i am sick of myself.
from now on,
i'm going to change.
here i pledge to all of u hu read my blog
(if u even do):

that i will refuse all negative thoughts,
that i will put everybody's sake above mine,
that i will think before i speak,
that i will do all the work i need to do,
and that i shall commit all problems to Jesus.

but here, also,
i fear i must purge my head
of these few reeling thoughts:

fick u for being so unreliable.
fick u for givin up after 1/2 a day.
fick u for putting the exams after hols.
and fick u, fodu,
for all the things i can't find ne1 to blame.

i glued my sorry bum
to the compy chair for 5 straight hours today.
i completely dedicated my two eyeballs,
10 fingertips
and every neuron in my brain to NiE.
and i am not exaggerating.
i cannot remember another time
when i've ever been so dedicated.
now if i could only channel that kinda energy
into my studies
i believe i'd be alot happier heh.

went to goeh kien's house
with liz, cow, yi kinn and tian an
after school to do the NiE.
2 hours we spent on lunch,
and 1 hr in his house doing absolutely nothing.
i was so irritated and upset
i nearly burst into tears on the spot.
crybaby yeah yeah.
1 com had no keyboard,
1 com had no internet connection,
1 com had no affinity with yi kinn's photoshop,
and 1 com had a sucky mouse.
it all boiled down to a big fat nothing.
cow ended up doing shit on a computer
while yi kinn went chatting on another.
for now, i cannot recall any1
i've ever been quite that irritated at.

i wonder which is worse:
to let your temper loose,
or to keep it all in and sulk.

cow prefers the former.
me:
i don't noe,
but i've been sticking with the latter alot.

ended up skiving tuition
coz i came home late
after accomplishing absolutely nth.
sat in front of the com
all the way till way past my dinnertime
so that i could justify my dissatisfaction
from not getting nethin done.
sent 6 emails to both liz and yi kinn
comprising of all the details
required in every single page,
from each article's grammar mistake
to every picture needed for every article
to every caption needed for every picture.
everything except the blurb
coz we still haven't decided on the pictures for that 1 yet.
when was i ever the productive 1 but now?
i'm tired of it.
i want liz to be the productive 1 again.
i'm too lazy and i can't be bothered nemore.
plus i need to study.

i'm actually whining now.
urgh!

dad got a call from his second sister on thursday. apparently her father-in-law just passed away. we left for muar on friday night and on saturday morning, mum and dad went to johor bahru to visit the deceased's family. had to cancel on esther for singing in church and i dun think she was too happy about it *wince* second time liao.

spent 2 days and nights in muar eating and sleeping. left my bio texts in the car with mum and dad so i didn't get to study except when i decided to make do with alex(my brilliant-but-relatively-fat-IT cousin)'s 7 yr old bio reference text and damn, the syllabus back then is a hellotta different than the way it is now. think i prefer it the way it was back then when bab 5 was already in bab 1.

dad bought some chestnut-like TV lazy-chair while he was in johor that took up 1/2 the space in the car. mi brought 6 of her pillows, cus 3 and me 1. our car ended up looking like pillowland coz the entire backseat was overflowing with their pillows. none of us could sleep properly coz there wasn't enuff space to rest our legs comfortably and we ended up bundling our legs one on top of another. every car which passed us by could see a pair of red-socked feet(mine), a pair of skinny knobbly feet(mi's) and a pair of massive bulky feet(cus') all interlocked with each other and resting amidst 10 extremely colorful pillows. we must've been a real sight hehe. we caught so many ppl staring at us on the way home.

dad made us assemble his chestnut-lazychair for him when we got home, that lazybum. bcoz it was so heavy, slippery, fragile and difficult to assemble, we've all managed to scratch it a dozen times in the most painfully obvious places. and bcoz he got it cheap from his second sister's brother-in-law, it lacked alot in quality too. the wooden pieces didn't match properly at 1 point no matter how hard we tried to screw them into place, so now we all believe that if dad gains another few kg or so, it might collapse under him ^^ but to do him justice, the chair's pretty comfortable la. can wiggle summore 1, like a rocking chair hehe :P

as of now, liz, yi kinn, goeh kien and i are arguing over everything to do with the NiE. we can't agree on how the masthead should look like and wut to write for all the captions and we're giving yi kinn, the graphics designer, a tremendous headache. oh Lord, his computer's gone and crashed on him now. hardeharhar... i'm having fun, in a freaking-out sort of way. gone for 1 weekend and nth gets done. i really hope it turns out well. if all that editing goes to waste... *snarls*

hehe, got this webbie off a blog :P

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Some sappy love calculator thing :P

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The Daily Grinder
I love blogging because it's like therapy. I can write about anything and everything that happens to me - from the food I ate to what I was doing when I heard the latest 'breaking news'. Being able to communicate with my friends (online and/or real life) through my blog is important to me.

aww isn't that just so sweet :) i'm a daily grinder!

got this from marvin's bro, calvin:

"Nature fits all her children with something to do,
He who would write and can't write, can surely review."
James Russel Lowell.

hehe it appeals so much that i can't help posting it here :P i blog entirely too much. if Sir from Cosmotots saw this he'd diagnose me with AVD: acute verbal diarrhea.

think i've found a more creative outlet for my verbal diarrhea now tho. i've just discovered fanfics! *beam* i'm in love. i love stories. i really do. i love the surrealty. i love how good writers can suck u right into their stories and make u walk beside their main characters.

calvin writes some good shit! you have to check him out. there are no words for his genius and wordplay :D just go read.

visited rachel's blog and she's quit smokin ! so happy hehe. God blessed her :) neway checked her links out and that was how i stumbled upon fanfics. it seems that everybody else i've told noes all bout fanfics. i'm such a loser heh *sniffs* go check hers out. hm, i'm being a big bad critic here, but here goes: hers are pretty insubstantial, and her style isn't much to gawk at... but to do her justice her stories are pretty idealistic if u're a romantic la ;)

all this is so kewl! i wanna write a fanfic someday.

come to think of it... i want alot of things, don't i :|

went to mv again today after practice (for real this time) with liz, cow, ray tat and tian an. originally wanted to go only to meet aiman but liz and i ended up dragging everybody (coincidentally all guys) into every shop that sold stuff we cud wear . both of us ended up buyin stuff we're not entirely sure we want coz we felt extra extravagant :P i am now a proud(?) owner of a yellow and red wallet with a pig and hearts (cow and liz bought it for me ), and also a necklace with a matching twin pig to the one on my wallet (it was a coincidence). i'm not sure i understand why i am so well associated with pigs :| every1 sed the wallet with the pig suited me. i think it's coz i'm so lazy.

saw a necklace at miss selfridge that cost 23 bucks (erk!)--i thought there was a 70% discount at 1st :( talk bout naivety-- and i'm dying to have it. it had 2 black cats, male and female (the female had a diamond ribbon around her neck), sitting side by side with their tails entwined with each others' on a thin bronze chain. i'm not sure why i'm dyin to have it coz it neither stands out alot nor is remarkably exquisite... but i really really really want it ^^ (<---got that from tian an) i'm going to get it the moment i have enuff cash if i still want it and if it's still in stock by then. there was also this make-ur-own-personalized keychain stall with the kewlest stuff :D there was this particular kind: hollowed wood with a clear plastic panel over brightly colored fonts. i love it i love it i love it! but i didn't get 1 :( when i do have enuff cash i think i'll get 1 that says "God Loves Krys" in bright green, yellow and red fonts :P

i just realised sth. why am i bloggin bout this?

overall, fun fun fun day :) very happy and perky. shoppin is livin' la vida loca! (or at least i think that's how it goes) :P God bless everybody!

hehe i give up "not plannin to blog for sumtime". i can't resist. bloggin is so fun when u have sth to blog about.

a dialog box has been popping up every few hours in between the moliu quizzes i've been taking all day, telling me that my com will restart in 60 seconds. the odd thing was that i wasn't pissed, but tickled. it was so funny when i had to tell ppl that my com wud restart in 50.. 30... 10... seconds spent the rest of the day pleading for a remedy online :P

i nvr knew virus-hunting cud be so fun. cus put up a plea on his gaming forum and we got help from this 15 yr old admin whose super tech-savvy brilliance does not tie in properly with his nickname: Sheepeep. Sheepeep!!! you ROCK!! *wolf-whistles* :P we thot it was the sasser worm at 1st but after dl-ing everythin sheepeep suggested, it turns out we don't have sasser. which is prolly lucky coz accordin to 1 of the sites he referred us to, there's a whole FREAKIN FAMILY of WORMS !

cus spent the last 60 seconds of waiting for our com to restart staring at the dialog box intensely :P he was memorizing the path to the file which keeps "terminating with Windows". under cow's recommendation, we went and renamed the file in hopes of stoppin it from workin the moment our com popped back to life. by way of mollifyin our aggravation, the path to the file which causes our com to restart every few hours is now "C:\WINDOWS\system32\FUCK YOU ASSMATIC VIRUS!!!.exe" we don't noe how effective this is yet :P but so far, we haven't restarted once since we gave it that odious new filename.

damn, i find this so funny :P

hehe! too moliu ledi. click this!

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a tickle.com IQ test ...is 131 very high? *blink*

Are you Addicted to the Internet? 47% Average@Internet-User.com (41% - 60%) You seem to have a healthy balance in your life when it comes to the internet and life away from the computer. You know enough to do what you want online without looking like an idiot (most of the time). You even have your own Yahoo club or online journal! But you enjoy seeing your friends and going out to enjoy life away from your computer. The "Are you Addicted to the Internet?" Quiz at Quiz Me!

this is... somewhat freaky.

The Ultimate Personality Test

Krystle, you're a Millionaire!

Your personality is actually determined by two personality sub-types - your primary, or dominant sub-type, and your secondary sub-type. You are a Millionaire which means you are a Success / Thinker Your primary sub-type is defined by "Success" characteristics and your secondary sub-type is defined by "Thinker" characteristics.

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And that's just scratching the surface.

hehe... personality test from tickle.com. how lame can i get?

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wasn't plannin to blog for some time... but i just read rachel's blog and it sent my head reeling. she smokes? i mean, damn, i noe she doesn't have a dad and it's tough having a working mum hu duzn't bond wif u but it ain't no good reason to start smokin man. this sounds contemptous but i think she's doing it to be kewl and rebellious. wut is WITH the ppl nowadays? this world's goin to the pits. God bless her.

today was unbelievably nice :) i didn't emcee very well but at least i don't think i sucked liz made her mum call my mum so that i could go to her place after church and join them for a BBQ dinner and mum relented :P

went to carrefour (is that how u spell it?) to buy steak, charcoal and some BBQ equipment. waltzed around the place wif liz, mei yii and hui yii and it was so fun somehow coz it was almost like a girls' outing i'd forgotten how fun those cud be like hehe. must stop and look at everything 1.

bbq was like magic. we ate under the stars (there were actually STARS!!! and so many of them too ) we had so much to eat! steak, mutton, sausages with cheese and black pepper, chicken, roasted chestnuts, sweet potatoes, cherry tomatoes... whoa :P we ate so much that it was hard to move afterward. it seems that everytime i go out wif liz's parents, i end up stuffing myself to the point of nearly exploding :)

liz's new (mebbe not so new :P) house is so nice! she has no idea how lucky she is to have her own room. so much privacy! and she gets to personalize it totally, completely to her own taste. in my house, ppl barge in and out of my room w/o so much as knockin

today was so nice... it was so nice that i'm too lazy to describe it. i just wanna soak up the memory :P somehow, hanging out wif christians isn't quite the same as hanging out wif non-christians. everybody's so open and it feels as tho we all share a bond :) like we're all family. and sometimes... actually alot of the time,(this is sad) i think i feel closer to the ppl in this family of christ than i do to my own family :(

yeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! i noe i blog too much altogether but this is too good not to blog about!!!!! I HAVE A WEBCAM NOW!!!!!!! WAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH!!!! and it WORKS!!!!!!!!!!

i am back in the office again. how inevitable.

the [f]orces [o]f [d] [u]niverse suck so much that i can't think of a word evil enough for them. for it. i've nvr had so much pissiness lined up consecutively in just a few hours before. it was like having a hundred dominoes all lined up one after the other with each one waiting for the 1 first in line to topple so that the london bridge would come falling down. yes, i'm being dramatic and metaphorically incorrect here. i think i deserve to be. if it weren't for cow i think today would've been 1 of the worst days of my life.

spent 3 hours going around the world with mum in her toyota because of 1 wrong turn. reached school 4.5 hours later than i'd promised last night. i don't noe how it was that cow wasn't more sulky than me. went to mv and spent most of our money investing in merchandise for his guppies and food for my lunch-deprived tummy. spent the rest of our time like most poor ppl do.: walking and watching.

you noe when i thought my parents were behind 70% of everything that made me miserable? now i'm convinced it's FODU. it's FODU, i tell you. it's out to get me. it's done it before and now it's doing it again. it's out there, i tell you. beware.

i hate FODU. this isn't the 1st time it's screwed up nearly everything. i don't noe who i'm more annoyed with, FODU or tan lin. some guys from the P classes should gang up and conspirate against that woman. how can she put the exams after the holidays?! it's utterly unethical. why ppl haven't conspirated to wear hockey masks, hoi bao her before she leaves in her fancy merce and throw her into the taman jaya lake i kenot understand. i need to campaign this idea and tell the ppl of CHS.

bleh! i've bitched so much in my last few posts already. i hope FODU's happy.

i am now in mum's office. i am slumped on dad's table. i am stealing rest by catching forty winks in between ringing phones, beeping fax machines and bustling sales executives. i am supposed to be in school! i thought i was supposed to be at chemistry tuition. but as it turns out, chem isn't 9am-11am. it's 11am-1pm. sometimes, i'm so thick i appall myself.

i am almost certain this is karma. i lied to mum that tuition started at 9.30am coz i got up late and i didn't want her snapping at my heels that early in the morning (it was 9.15am). she even drove to the pasar pagi to buy some cheapsale black pants or sth coz she thought we had 15 minutes to spare. some guilt did gnaw meekly at my conscience, but then i figured if i made it late for tuition, i'd only have 1.5 hours of pretending not to sleep instead of the usual 2. well haha. serves me right now *rolls eyes*

my head is uncomfortably swimmy. stayed up late yabbing wif cow. we haven't had a Quality-Time yab in a long time and yday was 1 of them. Reminisced childhood stories both sordid and funny. it's amazing how much you can remember about ur childhood when u're on a roll. we talked so much and shared so many secrets that we barely seemed to have enuff time in the world.

dad was recollecting memories of our babyhood 1 day in the car. it was all so adorably funny that everybody either kept laughing, or cringing in mortification. every1 of us has, as it turns out, had a trademark baby-story. since blogging is a much more constructive thing to do compared to stealing highly unsatisfying rest, i shall blog more. this will be, as Sir of Cosmotots is so fond of saying, verbal diarrhea.

My Babyhood
i was the prettiest baby of the lot, if not the most spoilt. i won 2nd place for some baby competition, sth i wudn't have known if not for the knee-high trophy in the hall and the picture of my parents holding me and that trophy, looking all proud and happy. i was good to look at coz i had huge bambi eyes (hundreds of passerbys can testify this), but i was, inwardly, a monster. i refused to sleep unless somebody patted my bum a thousand times till their hands ached and made my hammock swing up and down. i cried, wailed, howled, screamed and screeched every night for no apparent reason until my voice grew hoarse and my mum got so sick of me that she threw and locked me out of their bedroom. i would wait till my parents fell asleep every night, then crawl out of my cot into my parents' bed and sleep between the both of them. but wut i consider one of the most mortifying things about my youth (i stand corrected, cow :), not youth, but childhood) was that i drank from a milking bottle all the way till standard 1.

eh. well now, wudn't u noe it. it's llam already :)

mum won't let me stay over at mei yii's tml after CG. how long will this period of incarceration go on for i dare not imagine. i am furious. i must not dwell on this. i must find a more creative outlet other than blogging for my anger. i shall digress.

dazhen repulsed me today. in fact he repulsed me so much that he scared me. went to eat durian with mum, ayi, my cuzzes and dazhen for dinner and he insisted on sitting next to me. halfway thru the durian-fest, he started sniffing my sleeve. and then he pressed his entire face into my arm. he was sniffing me. literally sniffing me. sniffing me as tho he cudn't get enuff of my arm. my arm. mr freaking arm.

he sed my shirt smelt nice. he started sniffing more and more. he very nearly sniffed me where i would have screamed at him for. he freaked me totally, utterly, completely. babies can be so scary. if anybody'd come right up to me then and there and asked me whether i'd rather have dazhen near me or kiss his iguana... i'd have kissed his iguana. i dun think i like babies very much. not unless they're really really irresistably cute with rosy pink cheeks. which is very bad of me coz "all men are created equal" and i shudn't judge by appearances.

bought the banner materials for caleen's Cheer 2004 thing wif liz today after chem tuition. it is selfish of me to think so, but i wonder why is it that after nearly 6 months of friendly indifference she suddenly decides that i am the person to go to when in need of a banner. even liz is indignant on my behalf that we have to make the banner and pay for it too.

wait, no. i'm exaggerating. cal sed if the material cost alot, we'd all split to pay for the money spent. and esther (liew) sed we'd round up a bunch of ppl to help with the banner. apparently the cheerleaders are too busy perfecting their moves to lift a solitary pretty painted fingernail.

yeesh, i sound so self-centered and nasty. i'm gonna stop right here before i say nethin else.

i have cause worthy of celebration today! my lips are almost completely perfectly normal now! i can kiss and niffly my bolster as and when i like and it feels wonderful :D i wonder why bolsters are so comfy. whenever i'm in a bad mood or when i'm sad or angry i just bury my face into my bolster and i feel loved and happy again. to some extent anyway :P long live bolsters! and lipbalm hehe. i guess putting lotion/ointment/whutnot does help after all. s'only a matter of how long i wanna go on stickifying the bed/sofa/bolster before i get better :P

cus taught me a prank today. he learnt it off some forum. it's a prank you can play on somebody in your office or somebody who shares ur computer

1. Get a screenshot of your desktop (press print scrn on ur keyboard>open paint>paste>save)

2. Set the screenshot as your wallpaper (i'm sure u noe how :)

3. Right-click on ur desktop>go to Arrange Icons By>unselect Show Desktop Icons

and now, whenever you click on the icons, you can't go in ! hehe talk about cheap thrills. cus and i went giggling away in tickledom when we tried it out and it worked :) brother-sister bonding indeed.

hee! 3 hours at the com and i've sorted out some stuff i've been meaning to get around to for a month already. finally got the chatterbox :P finally got liz her chatterbox. finally understood why the right margin's a lil off center (it's coz of the pic). finally made the archives thing automatic. MUAHAHAHAHA! so happy! cus and mi dun seem to noe how to rejoice wif me tho been ignoring chemistry all day. i really have to start workin on it later. why can't chem be as interestin as html? or css. or wtv it is that i dl/edit/use for my blog.

my lips are soooo dry :( think the weather's seriously screwing with me. i've nvr had my lips this dry all my life. they look like they belong to a leper or sth. ghoulishly white with blood-red cracks, all peeling and dry. wut is wrong with me?! if i don't use lip balm they crack so much that they hurt like crazy. putting lotion, ointment or whutnot on my skin isn't sth i like doin coz it makes me feel sticky and i can't sleep w/o finding that i'm stickifying the bed or the sofa. now, i can't kiss my bolster everytime i feel happy coz i'll be stickifying my bolster *scowl* even complainin doesn't help to mollify my agony.

i'm going to be onstage in church for 4 consecutive weeks. esther called on sunday to ask me if i could emcee this saturday's youth service. the week before i was gollum, last week i filled in the empty places for the praise team, this week i'm going to be the emcee and next week i'm going to sing. i'm wondering if this is God's way of trying to tell me sth. u noe just a few yrs back, i had stage fright so bad that i'd go up there with my knees shaking, my hands trembling and my voice faltering. but for the last few months... i've been onstage so many times that i've already lost count :D the sense of achievement i'm feelin now is giddifying.

damn, it's hard not to feel conceited when i read over that last paragraph :P

yday i read max lucado's a love worth giving. the guy's seriously good. only a few chapters and i've already had too much to absorb properly. i've got to get a copy of that book. the book's based on 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails."

and you noe it's so easy to breeze through these 4 verses w/o weighing and considering its words properly. i've seen these verses so many times in my life on bookmarks, books, greeting cards and even lucinda put it on her blog but everytime i see 1 Corinthians 13:4-8, i just breeze thru it and think, yep how true. but i don't meditate on how i can apply it to myself or nethin.

there are so many books and leaflets and websites out there talking about love, love and love. i think the ppl who write these things are targeting the majority of ppl who find love so fascinating. consider teens today. at least 70% of them are out looking for a boy or girlfriend. so many ppl nowadays talk about love bcoz they know it to be something remarkably beautiful, wonderful and pure. they go out looking for it by all means: hooking up with ppl online, looking for a boy or girlfriend to share with, having pre-marital sex... don't we all know ppl like these? wut i think is... these ppl who talk the most about love and try so hard looking for it are those who are missing it the most. doesn't it make sense?

i dun think i'm doin a good job at getting my point across. i don't feel that sense of clarity and understanding when i read over wut i've just sed. i really need to hone my writing skills. but this book teaches you how to love in a way no other book can. i noe: it's written by a christian author and based on the bible's interpretation of love, but keep an open mind: christians aren't biased; they just see things (or try to, anyway) through God's eyes. get the book, i urge you. max lucado talks to you personally through the print of his books. i have the impression that he's trying to share with the world whut he's learnt from experiences and Jesus (typical Christian spirit :P) and from reading his books so far, i think he's doing a damned good job of it :) sharing, i mean.

i urge you... read the book. or at least, get the book and read it for the sake of proving me wrong :P

and damn, i'm being a prat again, aren't i. i just vainly hope i didn't bore you.