spent all day in class today
scrawling illegible chinese characters
all over a few scraps of paper torn out from my moral exercise book
so that i cud pass up 10 fan wens on time.
didn't want the teacher to make good her threat
and actually call up my parents.
*shudder*

after skewl and lunch,
i sat wif cow at the very top of the makmal stairs
opposite the CF room
'cos we got halau-ed from the room
and had nowhere else more desirable to go.

it's actually really nice up there.
cooling, quiet, peaceful, tucked-away,
and there's a really nice view
of the ppl walking up the slope outside skewl :P

and the ppl walkin up the slope outside skewl
had a damned nice view of us too,
as it turned out.

a bunch of form 3 guys walked past,
saw us, 
and started hooting and wolf-whistling.
yelling "ooiyor! pak tor woor! pak tor woor!"

i thought they were cow's friends or sth
'cos he was half grinnin away
and yellin other stuff back at them.
but he sed, no he didn't noe them.

it was quite absurd la.
i mean, they're form 3 for craps' sake.
and they're yellin like a bunch of kids
who just 1st witnessed a couple 
tryin to swallow each other or sth.
and we were only. just. sitting. there.

abit miffed,
i half-turn around and give them the finger.
a second later
i realise cow's finger
is right beside mine.
i turn around and i blink at him.
only for him to blink back at me.

we'd both simultaneously
given them the finger.

after the realisation had sunk in,
we both started giggling like silly.
the surprise of it all
made the form 3 guys hoot even more.

hehe, i dunno!
it was just so funny
to think that we'd given them the finger
simultaneously w/o even a thought.

i wonder whut they think.

didn't screw up today.
but didn't outdo myself either.

got time is money for impromptu speech.
went around in so many circles
i think even the audience got dizzy.
didn't really make very clear, solid points.

mr. william sed my voice was abit screechy
for the O.I.
just can't escape from that remark, it seems.
screechy this screechy that.
urgh.

had a misadventure in the girls' loo
before the competition.
went to melakukan proses penyahtinjaan
(shitting),
u see.

normally, i make sure i leave the loo clean
for the next person.
if the flusher doesn't work,
i always use the hose the wash the undesirable results
down the hole.
(unlike most ppl)

when it comes to proses penyahtinjaan,
i always make sure i drop the unsightly results of my digestion
straight into the hole of the loo,
and not lying on the white porcelain.
this is exactly wut i did today.

that left the tissue paper that
refused to conveniently go down into the hole.
so, since the flusher didn't work,
i pick up the hose. 

turn on the tap,
direct the rapidly flowing water at the tissue paper,
and make it go down the hole.

for a second,
i think everythin has gone at last.
another clean loo ready for use.
how considerate of me,
i think,
and beam inwardly.

then,
in the very next moment,
almost all at once,
everything floats up
out of the hole
so quickly
that i think for 1 split second
that it might just overflood
and touch me. 

have u any idea
how revolting it is,
to see ur own crap
floating around in murky yellowish water 
amply supplemented
with papier mache tissue paper,
rising up and out of the toilet hole
like a whirlpool that looks as tho
it's about to swallow u up
from in between ur legs?

bleeeuurghh.

and so now,
in the loo of the 1st cubicle
of the block E girls' toilet,
are the very obvious results
of (my) proses penyahtinjaan.
all brownish and swirling
around with papier mache tissue.
how attractive.

i don't envy the person
who discovers this.

i sound like a really
bad impersonation of marge simpson.
but i decided i was well enuff
to attend skewl today neway.

i guess it was just as well,
cos my turn to do
an english oral presentation
came today.
+, i had kimia peka (T_T)"

liz's turn was today too,
and she did a review-cum-summary of High Society.

i did some speech thing
about a man i read about in the readers' digest
and wut he did.
he spent 10, 000 $1 bills
with his address written on them,
askin ppl to send him a postcard so he could
make this huge mosaic out of used postcards.

i got 47/50 :)
and was commended for
"delivering my speech successfully
despite my sickness"
happy la.

bcos nobody else from our class
wud join any of the english competitions,
pn kauthar gave liz and i her
reknowned beseeching puppy-dog look wif her eyes.

so now, tml,
i have to go for impromptu
and oral interpretation.

hahaha.

God,
please don't let me embarrass myself.

i didn't go skewl today.
woke up wif my throat parched,
my nose runny and my voice croaking.
spent a delicious 5 more hours in bed
until mum woke me up at 11am
to take me to the office.

i've tuit at 2.30pm.
i wonder wut liz must be thinkin of my absence
and whether cow went to skewl today.
if he did, then i'll be seeing him later
and it'll make up for this boring wait
for the short needle of the clock on the wall to reach 2.

i'm not sure where i got this virus from.
it cud've been cow,
bcos' we shared Dave's Deli and a Coke yday;
or my ayi and sister,
bcos' we all sleep in the same room.

ayi got a  sore throat just a couple of days ago
so she cud've spread her germs to mi and me,
but cow complained of a sore throat yday
so it cud've been him as well.

or mebbe the force of all their germs combined
crushed my white blood cells' defense.

mi lost her bestfriend recently.
it used to be mi, grace and samantha
and then when samantha migrated to australia,
it was mi and grace.
but last week,
grace told her that she didn't want to be friends anymore.
she sed her mum told her not to mix wif mi.
so now my lil 10 yr old sis hasn't a proper bestfriend nemore.

she was really sad at first,
cos she didn't noe wut was it about her
that grace's mum didn't like.
but i asked her about it on monday
and she sed she was ok now,
she still had many other frenz.

i've felt as tho i've lost most of my best friends recently too.
nearly every 1 of them is the president or Sth
of some society.
i'm a Nth cos i didn't go for any interviews.
i didn't want to have that kinda responsibility.

so, now...
if it weren't for the
40 days of fast and prayer thing by NECF,
i'd be sittin alone in the canteen nearly everyday.
the worst is that i barely feel missed at all.
makes u wonder who are ur real friends.

liz lent me a book by ben elton yday.
it's called High Society
and it's all about drug legislation.
so now, instead of hardcore anarchy,
i'm reading all about legislated anarchy.
how droll.

legislated anarchy
is such an oxymoron
and yet elton manages to pull it off.
liz is crazy about this book.
i wonder,
is it healthy for a CF president
to consume such heresy about drugs.

also by ben elton is
Dead Famous.
s'bout reality tv
and is excruciatingly
dirty and funny.
very revelating.
makes u think bout Survivor
and whether u've been seein only what the media
wants u to see.

consider them
my personal recommendations to u
of the controversial and dirty-minded.

tuit at mr. rao's start at 7.30am on saturdays.
it's such torture to wake up early for tuit on sats.
everybody noes u're sposed to sleep in on sats.
and suns.
haih.

spent 2 hrs of chem tryin to pry my eyes open wide enuff
to look as tho i was payin attention.
think my efforts were pretty much in vain.

oh, here's a shout out to yu xuan!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
u suck(!) for not comin 
to celebrate in church like u sed u wud,
but i'll try not to harp on that...
God bless u always and always
and i hope u've had a happy birthday.
(when are u gettin ur car, btw? :P) 

skived bible class again.
wonder wut the teacher thinks.
she caught jian sheng skiving
in the elim lounge
(damned glass walls)
last week,
and prolly surmised correctly that i'd skived along wif him.

in church, james called me up onstage
to be part of his presentation.
it was sposed to be an interview
about the dream idol thing,
he sed.

"nothing difficult,
just some easy questions.
it'll take less than 5 minutes."

wut really happened
was that he went all ali g on me.
*rolls eyes*
boys.

out of the blue,
there were questions like
whut did i do wif
the RM50, 000 awarded
and how was working on our new album wif siti norhaliza like.
it took me .5 a second to realise wut he was doin
when he 1st asked about all that non-existent cash.

but it wasn't so bad la.
i wasn't the only 1 put on the spot hehe,
melissa sim kena oso.
and
u had to admit the presentation was more interestin
than the rest were all month.

hehe,
i got 2 free ice-creams and some maise today.
kee wai bought an ice-cream at buy 1 free 1
and he gave me the free 1.
then hui yii bought another ice-cream for me
and esther gave me some leftover maise
from the glutton contest.
i gave the maise to weng soon hehe.

i'm sposed to write a script bout God's purpose in our lives
for the youth service
but i haven't gotten on it for a week now.
have to pass it up within this week
but i haven't any idea how to go about it yet.
to all of you
who "have the milk of kindness
flowin thru the quart of ur veins",
pls pray for me, k?!
i need God's inspiration!

thanks :)

bleh bleh and double bleh.
sat next to a different guy this morning,
and i'm 97% sure that i plonked on his shoulder
at least once.
*grimace*

the carolinas came today.
it was a lil messy and disorganised
but after takin everythin into consideration,
i guess it went pretty well.

i like sittin in front of kah hoe and shi jin.
they are the cutest, funniest guys
i've met in a long time :P
sitting in front of them nvr gets boring.
they always seem to
have sth really funny/stupid to say/do/sing
so that u'll always have a smile playin on ur lips.

wud elaborate further bout the latter,
but my skill with words
fails to epitomize their adorableness.

nth much to blog about
and even if there is,
i don't want to blog about them.
so,
since i've nth more to say,
i'll just post some wonky pics up la.
been using them lately for my msn display pic,
thanks to sarah
and for want of a lil diversity.


took this while fiddlin wif cow's digicam
on the way to the readin corner
from the padang.


liz asked me to give her my best scrunched-up-nose expression
and voila.
ironically,
jian sheng sez that this looks like liz's normal face.
not very flattering for either of us, imho.

by some slip(?) of fate,
i sat next to the very same guy on the bus again.
but thankfully,
this time i didn't plonk on his shoulder even 1ce ^^
tho...
he had to prod me awake
when we reached the bus stop heh.

read the secret dreamworld of a shopaholic today.
very cliche, i noe.
everybody's been readin,
or have already finished,
readin sophie kinsella.
i feel so bimbotic when i read stuff like this.
it's like sweet valley,
only worse
'cos everybody (most girls, neway)'s readin/read it
and thinks it's the kewlest book written ever.

it's got a pretty similiar storyline
to that of can u keep a secret.
bumbling, disorganised, lowly paid,
yet highly fashionable and "imaginative" young lady
gropes all over the place throughout the story
while making all sorts of the silliest mistakes
before some hotshot 25th richest bachelor in Britain
thinks she's super "perceptive" and "unique"
and decides to snap her up.

but i liked can u keep a secret better.
the girl featured had more brains,
for 1 thing.
rebecca bloomwoord is so ditzy and bimbotic at times
(actually, most of the time)
that i'm sure her I.Q.'s gotta be
as BIG
as her shoe size.

the ending sorta made up for her ditziness la i guess.
romantic happy endings always score wif me.
i'm a big softie for romance.

thank God for books, really.
otherwise i'd have nth else to do during recess.
*reflects*
yes, i'm that pathetic.

went to a form 5 bm class by mistake today
'cos mum and my new tuition teacher miscommunicated.
but i had fun la.
the teacher's nice
(she wears minnie mouse bedroom slippers)
and her house's crawlin wif sweet furry felines :)
a major bonus.
after class today i sat outside her house
and a big sweet furry gentle tabby sidled up to me
and started nibblin me all over
on my jeans and shirt.
*swoons*
i adore the furry ickle fluffimals :)

i had the most embarrasin experience
on the bus this mornin.
by reason,
i shudn't have been so sleepy
cos i'd taken a 2 hr nap
yday afternoon...
but somehow i was so drowsy
that i kept noddin off to sleep neway.

i was sittin next to this form 5 guy,
and there weren't any headrests,
just this metal bar thing
slightly above ur shoulders.
so i cudn't very well
lay my head back and sleep
cos then my head'd be hangin
over the metal bar thing.
and i assure u,
it's very uncomfortable.

so as i slowly, slowly
dropped off into sleep,
my head wud slowly, slowly
lower itself
onto the shoulder of the guy next to me,
till it was about 2 inches away...
then, by then,
i'd unconsciously tread my first step into dreamland
and my head wud fall (very ungracefully)
like a dead weight,
PLOP!
onto his shoulder,
and i'd jerk upright again.

and guess what?
this happened at least
another 7 or 8 times.
*cringe*

the worst thing is he nvr made a move
nor a single sound.
so i'm not even sure
if i'd really hit his shoulder
all those times.
i only remember snappin awake
and being acutely embarrassed
(or, i was, for as long
as the time it takes to be conscious
before you fall back into sleep,
anyway)
whenever i realised i'd hit my head on sth.
*cringe again*

sweet Jesus,
i wonder wut that guy thinks
(O_o)"

bleh, my internet connection sucks.
my browser wudn't load yday
and i kept signin off and on msn
so in the end i had to get cow to help me
publish my last post.
 
before that he had to help me resize the pics too.
and just like an animal,
he had to leave a mark on "his" territory.
*rolls eyes and pokes the ushi*
 
i had black pepper chicken for lunch today,
but they were so overly marinated
that they scorched my ulcers.
i have THREE ulcers in my mouth!!!
one behind my upper lip,
one inside my left jaw,
and one more inside my right jaw.
all hiding behind my teeth too!
 
u have no idea how agonizing it is
to brush ur teeth
with an ulcer
behind nearly every row of teeth u have.
*winces*
whut in the world did i do
to deserve such misery?
i am anguished.
woe, oh woe is me.
 
finally told mum my results today
and she's been taking it...
alright(?)
so far.
 
we went to 1u yday
and bought a pair of adidas shoes and socks
for RM2.80.
hehe nope, no typo there.
maxis sponsored the other RM297.00.
apparently,
the more lines customers register at M.A.S.A.
(maxis authorised service agents)
the more $$$ they get.
(they as in the dealers, i mean :P)
 
neway
here are the belated Cheer 2004 pics.
credits go to victoria and huey bing
for takin the pics,
and imgspot
for so generously hosting the same pics
again :P
 

me in white and zcui in pink.
i'm vaguely reminded of smurfs here hehe.
 

it's so obvious who's taller here
*sniff*
 
yup only 2 pics.
they're kinda all i have atm hehe :P
kinda silly, really.
we go to cheer 2004 and we barely take any pics
of the cheerleaders
*blush*
but i'll publish any interestin/nice/funny 1s
the moment i get my hands on them la.
and if i publish too many
the blog will take ages to load neway.
 
...eh,
cow just called me from skewl.
he won his frisbee match :P
 
"guess what?
we won the match!
frisbee is damn yeng!
(yi xiong/jia heng/1 of them)
made such a chun pass that i wanted to kiss him!
and i made a chun interception!
and jay win they all wanted to hoi bao me
'cos i made the last goal!
i've nvr had so much chance at winnin any sport
before!
it's so kewl!
and i think my next match is tml
so i can't make it for chem tuition tml...
i'm sorry,
i'll buy u lunch and a movie, k?
eh? eh!
hey perng! perng! PEERNG!
you all won ar?
whoa, really?!
how much??
6 to 7??
whooaa, congrats wei..."
 
*shakes head and grin*
wut an ushi. 

*SCREAMS!*
i'd received all the pics from jian sheng and zcui
and i'd gone and uploaded them all on imgspot
and i'd blogged everything nice and pat
with all the hyperlinks and pictures and correct grammar
and then i got tiao-ed by mum for being online till this late
and then when i click "publish" my browser goes and screws up
and now everythin that i'd blogged is gone gone gone
and disappeared very insensitively
into the vast bleak void of the accursed internet
and i can't even re-blog with the pics
'cos i didn't save the urls for the pics
and if i wanted to re-blog with the pics
i'd have to re-upload them all over again
and that'd take too freakin long for mum's likin or mine
so now i can only wail and complain here
while banging my fingers up and down
on this innocent and inoffensive keyboard
so as to vent in a more creative and harmless way.
 
i'm learnin from chuck palahniuk.
he writes whole paragraphs in just 1 sentence.
 
*and once again has been tagged n cp-ed by the friendly neighbourhood cow :)*

just finished fight club.
to the ending,
the narrator's flown over the cuckoo's nest
and thinks he's in heaven.
 
and i think i love new vocab.
esp those that sound chun :P
found out wut anarchism and nihilism mean:  
 
anarchism  
noun [U]
the political belief that there should be little or no formal or official organization to society but that people should work freely together  
  
nihilism  
noun [U]
a belief that all political and religious organizations are bad, or a system of thought which says that there are no principles or beliefs which have any meaning or can be true 
 
(from Cambridge Advanced Learner's Dictionary)

hehe,
i just thought of sth.
if there were fight clubs irl,
i'd be ambushed by space monkeys
and have rubber bands tightly wound around
my non-existent balls already.
'cos Tyler Durden says:
"The first rule of fight club is that you don't talk about fight club."
*sheepish look*
 
neway, i finally managed to hound
the dream idol pics out of cow
*beams*
don't have any of me while i'm onstage tho,
cow says it's 'cos i told him not to take any.
*smacks self*
ushi!!!
advice like that is meant to be ignored!
 
these were taken in the Dream Center
after the results were announced
and i got the cert and iPAQ... 
  


me(left) and liz(right) taking our very 1st pics
wif sunglasses on hehe.
remember relishing the fame, spotlight and glory.
was prolly thinkin:
"look at me! i'm the Dream Star Idol of RLC!"
*tips chin up and grins proudly* 
  


love this best hehe!
tho my jaw looks square and my hair limp.
we look like moviestars or sth wahaha :P
olsen sisters, move aside!
 
photos are lovely
(when u look good in them) hehe.
seeing these 2 remind me of my temporal stardom
and makes me fuzzy
and grin all over.
 
the moment i get a digicam,
i shall flood this blog with pics.
*grin* 
  
 
*this post has been tagged by ushi*
moo! n *muakz!*:)

woo :P blogger's gone and updated itself again!
*eyes skim eagerly over rows of new buttons*
they've made everythin easier already.
such progress and development.
*grin*
 
frisbee fever has hit our skewl.
tho why, i can't imagine.
it's utter madness i tell you.
just yday,
cow went M.I.A. (missin in action)
for an entire 2 to 3 hours,
and then emerged after liz's CF meetin
to say he'd been playin frisbee.
 
and then, when we(liz and i) were in mum's office,
harold popped up
only for us to learn that
he and the soccer zealots had been halau-ed
off the football field
(oh, madness)
to make way for the newly emerged
frisbee freaks.
sweet Jesus,
 
wut is going on
exactly?
 
i had to stay up late on thursday night drawing,
and then paintin
an incredibly unsatisfying frisbee logo
for the QM competition.
wanted to make a pun out of it
with the words "freeze" and "bee",
but the bee duznt,
apparently, 
look like a bee.
 
ayi asked me if it was a durian.
mi thought it was a furry yellow alien
and mum wondered if it were a cartoon mafiya.
 
so now most ppl have been asking,
why is there the word "freeze" above the alien's head?
*sigh*
and then i see suan aik 's compy-made creations,
and i wonder,
whhhyyy?!

why did i stay up workin on that
offensively furry
and un-bee-like creature? 

but nvm.
 
been readin sean's fight club
by chuck palahniuk
and it's 1 of the most
sordid books i've ever laid my hands on.
(been usin' that word alot recently)
u learn how to make Brown Soap
out of cooking Marla Singer's mother's thighs' fat,
and make nitroglycerin or wutnot
out of orange juice and gasoline.
 
but most remarkable of all,
u stumble upon the startling revelation
that an image of a "red lunging penis"
might have innocently flashed onscreen at you
while u were watching finding nemo
at TGV, mid valley
(oops, not TGV--GSC! my bad)
for 1/60 of a second.
makes u(me, anyway) cringe at 
how perverse 
the thoughts of some minds render.

i watched van helsing today,
and i loved it :P
dracula was sooo dashing hehe,
*swoons*
not a substantial
makes-u-think kinda movie,
but it was very entertaining.
for some reason,
purportedly blended storylines/characters
(i'm reminded of a big green ogre here :P)
are always so much more fun.
igor and dr jekyll?
frankenstein and werewolves?
hehe, sweet.

liz had the worst case of
PMS hormonal outrage i have ever seen b4 yday.
we both got into the bc and bm teachers'
bad bad books consequently.
had to meet pn. lim pek poh today
and write some surat pengakuan thing,
then apologise to pn. zaipah.

we're currently on rocky grounds atm,
liz and i.
but it's more rocky on my side
cos i'm wont to hold grudges.
how mean of me,
i spose.

i have been eating a good deal
more than usual lately.

had bbq at hui yii's place on fri
and it was lotsa fun :)
watched malaysian idol
and played wif weng soon
and lightning/thunder patrick,
snowy, santa, willy, samson,
red patrick, amber, fluffy
and some other furry friends hehe.
none of the ppl liz and i invited came :(
guess it was the only downside of the party.
everybody else was there,
even kee wai,
whom i haven't seen in a month.

then yday,
there was the glutton contest.
i had to eat noodles with
pasta sauce+tobasco sauce+chilli padi+pepper
and some disgustin-smellin ginger concoction
that was allegedly very good for health.
took 1 mouthful and decided to wait
till the contest was over heh.

went to royal selangor club
wif cow, suan aik, hui yii, mei yii,
jian sheng and cecilie (from norway).
liz's family belanja-ed all of us
and i shudder to imagine the bill.
liz ordered sooo many things
so that cecilie cud try each 1 out.
only cecilie cudn't take that much food
and we had to finish everythin in the end.

good God,
i felt so fat.
can't quite understand how
we managed dessert after all that.

took pictures wif all the funny monuments
that were conveniently just opposite
the dataran merdeka.
if jian sheng remembers to send them over,
i'll post them up :)

watched the day after tomorrow
on vcd today.
good movie,
if not a little anti-climatic near the end.
i was expecting armegeddon
more than a repentful U.S. president
and a beautiful new northern hemisphere climate.
how sordid of me.

i wonder if the director
made the movie
so as to create public awareness
about how cataclysmic the consequences
of global warming can be,
or to score ratings
and earn billions and billions of dollars.

forgive me,
i feel more than a little pessimistic today.

ppl have been extra nice today.
not in big ways,
but in small and unexpected ways.
very pleasant and surprising.
i'm wonderin if it's 'cos venus
is in the third house of saturn,
or mars, neptune and pluto are all in perfect
alignment with the sun's farthest reaching ray.
*shrugs* :P

and to think 2 of those ppl
are ppl whom i've nvr spoken a word to before.
God bless them :)

failed phys by 3 marks.
surprising, really.
thought i'd get worse.
all in all atm,
my point average for 6 subjects
is less than 40.
whoop-de-doo.

was so upset and depressed today
that i couldn't cry, but laugh.
so stupid.
open mouth but kenot cry,
can only wail and laugh.
sweet Jesus,
wut is becoming of me?
*shakes head*

to think i actually cared
and studied more this term too.
i'm vainly tryin to convince myself that
this doesn't mean i'm growin stupider,
but that the subjects have gotten harder
and i haven't been workin hard enuff.
but damn, the former is so easy to believe.
acc-ing to ps. joshua,
thinkin this way means that
the devil must be at work.
blah blah blah.
may God bless him too.
the devil i mean.
*wrinkles nose in disdain*

got a new watch today.
mum redeemed it with bonuslink points
and it's really good-lookin.
s'just... it's really too masculine
for a hand that's barely approx. 12cm long
with short stubby fingers.

it's as big and heavy as my old g-shock,
but it's more metallic
and showy.
it looks good,
but i'm not sure if i like it.
s'abit too exaggeratedly modern for my likin.
my old G still looks and feels
more familiar and comfortable.

realised yday that so many ppl
have a blog already.
so much so that isn't a novelty at all
to have a url to call ur own
and a page to rant in.
but that doesn't bother me.

wut bothers me is:
with so many blogs out there,
does anybody really take their time
to read any at all?
to weigh the black n white words
that r laboriously(?) typed out
so as to share something
they deem of value with the world?
to seriously consider
and ponder the burden of thoughts and emotions
that are posted on a meagre page
one calls his/her own
every now and then?

but,
just basically,
i worry and i wonder:
does ANYBODY read my blog at all?

finally got my last 2 posts to show :)
they haven't been showin in ages.
got me worried hehe.
thankfully, a click on
"republish entire blog" or sth like that
solved everythin.
thank God :)

u noe,
i honestly thought my results
wud improve this term.
and they have,
but on a scale so miniscule
that it makes me cringe.
+ (positive) 2 marks for addmath,
+ 4.5 marks for sejarah,
and + 0.5 marks for chinese
*groan*
it's all so extremely embarrasin.
and to top it all off,
i failed moral.
- (negative) 62 points in total
compared to last term.
*groooaan*

feel so dumb and guilty.
mum's not gonna be happy.
i mean,
MORAL of all subjects!
*bang head on keyboard*

hehe apparently
the fruit(?) of the 1.5 hrs spent
in cow's house yday
has been very publicly... observed.
esp by a certain sumbody
whose fruit(s) have nvr been observed
bcos they were imprinted
on likely more...strategically local areas.
ahem.

cow joined us for chem tuit today
after skewl :)
it was so nice havin him there.
and funny too.

i like my chem class alot,
there're lotsa funny personalities there.
there's this guy, for example,
whose name is tee yew.
but nobody ever calls him nethin
but tiu :P
and every1's always goin on about how much
they like tiu.

cow kept laughin when he knew :)

ooh,
pn kauthar finally decided
to heed all the complaints
the rest of our class teachers have been
burnin her ears with,
and changed our places.
thankfully,
liz and i are still together ^^
just nearer to the whiteboard
and to the front door.

pn kauthar's too nice
and relents too easily.
from the way she's gone and rearraged the seats
in our class,
there's not gonna be much of a diff
than how it was 30 hours ago.
hehe but who's to complain?

liz told me today that
she's convinced the internet is alive.
she says that it calls to you,
beseeches u to come online and then,
when u are within its grasp,
clutches you fiercely and obessively
with no mind of letting you go
till it has done with you.

such excuses
she comes up with
in view of her
inexplicable(?)
addiction to the net :P
tsk tsk.

i failed addmath again!
and i'd studied harder this term too!
*blinks indignantly*
such injustice!
i've nvr in my life come across a subject
that has made me feel so stupid before.
it irks me!
but wut the hell.

went to cow's house today
for the very 1st time :P
and it's so nice!!
all along,
he's made it sound like such a boring
desolated place that i nvr expected it
to be quite soo nice.
it's cosy and homey
and soooo wonderfully private :)
it's almost like,
far far away in the country lidat.
got swamps, got chickens,
lotsa lotsa greenery...
and yeee it was so nice being there :)
esp with him.

nvr felt as intimate wif nebody before
as i did wif him today.
having nobody around
and being in the middle of dreamland
is so lovely :)
being with him
is even lovelier.
he's so warm and cuddly
and lovely.
it was all so sweet and wonderful
that words defy everythin
i want to say.

so much so
that it duzn't matter if i end my post here
right now hehe.
God bless everybody!
*beams dreamily*

went to cg for the 2nd time.
even brought cus along...
i was hopin that he'd come to like every1
and open up.
i was so disappointed.
he barely cared about nethin
and only talked to them about their pentium 4.
when we were havin a group discussion
he just lay on the floor
and tried to sleep.
i was so so so disappointed.
so sad.

i can't help him.
i really can't.
i don't noe wut to do.
i mean,
he's nvr going to change
unless he wants to.
the problem is that he doesn't.
he doesn't want our help,
he just wants to talk about his forum.

i feel so sad.

hehe we got to go today after all!
and it was so fun :)
but we didn't go to the starlight cinema,
we went to 1u :P
saw a picture of how starlight really is
and it looked pretty awful.

yan yee and her cg went tho,
and they loved the movie.
sed they had alot and alot of fun...
so mebbe we missed out after all :P

perng picked us up in a four-wheel drive
and it was so kewl being able to go out,
esp with permission!!!!
so happy :P
we didn't do much at 1u but talk and talk.

jane and kelv had alot of problems and stuff..
but hopefully things have been righted now.
liz got to learn a whole bunch of stuff about guys
by hangin out wif jian sheng, suan aik and perng.
she claims to be much enlightened now :P

today turned out nice after all..
and i thought everythin wasn't gonna work out :P
hehe thank u, God!
thank u so much for such a wonderful night!