picked up the adventures of tom sawyer today
and started flippin thru it.
ended up reading it and i've been engrossed
nearly the entire day :)

and i thought i'd lost
the ability to get sucked into books.
just shows how much
the quality of the books written today
cannot compare wif those written yrs and yrs ago.

mark twain has fantastic language.
he injects wit and amusingly candid observations
into everything.
he's one of those authors who can capture
real emotions
and epitomize them beautifully in words.

l.m. montgomery(spell-check required)'s
prolly the female version of mark twain.
the culture and beliefs sound so much alike in their books
that their stories are almost definitely
based on the very same times.
she wrote the Anne series
and i loved those too.
look up Anne of Green Gables
and the books that follow after.

if you don't noe either anne or tom,
then wholly shame on you.
borrow the books from a friend or sth
and read them.
i urge you with all my heart :)
get gone with the wind too,
now that i think of it.

(this sounds really pious)
i love language.
i love how u can construct a picture
of somebody, something, somewhere
with just a few well-chosen, well-placed words.
i love how you can capture a picture/character/feeling in text
like the way a camera can capture pictures.
writing is an art.

storytelling is another art :)

1 day,
i want to be able to write like that.

i'm in the office now.
and i'm eating my favorite "uncle" 's fried mee :)
i've been eatin this at least twice a week
ever since my 1st mouthful:
it's scrumplicious.

if u ever come by new town, pj,
go to the kopitiam behind maybank
(i think it's maybank)
and look for that uncle.
he's quite stout, is not very tall,
has a very pleasant and friendly face,
and his fried mee is heavenly.

yday, around 6 something pm,
my new little niece (dazhen's sister) was born.
she is reportedly very pretty:
she has dimples, big eyes, lots of hair (on her head),
and a nose like my cousin's :P

she was due 13 days ago.
my cousin was in the hospital for nearly 2 weeks
waiting for this little baby.
we all thought sth might be wrong,
so mum got me to pray for her.

mi and i prayed some really short prayers yday,
and left it at that.
an hr later, the baby was born.

we were really happy cos we thought,
wow, prayer really is so powerful!
but then mum found out later that her sister-in-law
had gone to guan yin ma to pray
and got some ashes for my cousin to drink up.

so we dunno exactly which of the higher powers
are responsible for the safe delivery of my little niece.

it's quite aggravating, really.
guan yin ma has intervened more than 1ce already.
everytime i believe He's done something great,
it appears guan yin ma has been consulted as well
by one of my more concerned family members.
bleh...

but whoever it was who brought my wee lil niece
to see the world at last yday...
did a good good thing la :)

quite a sum of things have happened thru-out the last week,
so i'll just list them out here:

17/08/2004, Tuesday
went to melissa's party.
made a few new friends:
a tabby kitten and her/his mum,
ian, and ian's friend.

19/08/2004, Thursday
cow wore his hawaiian shirt,
3/4 pants, orange ankle socks
and spiked his hair :)
all bcos he thought makin some "mancandy" for me
wud make up for my crying the night before.
*ruffle ushi's hair fondly*

got into an argument wif brendan later at night
over the stupidest thing imaginable.
i dun think we'll ever think of each other
in the same way again.
and good riddance, i think.

20/08/2004, Friday
went 1u wif cow and watched 13 goin on 30.
giving it 6\10, a C-minus.
bought the huge cat earrings i've been eyeing for months :)
it burnt my pocket right through :(
thank God for cow and his abundance of generosity :)(XXX, ushi)

called lek soon up and told him i'd decided to sell the iPAQ.

picked chiew jeat up around 8pm to go to caleen's party.
ended up reaching KLGCC at ~9.38pm
cos we got soo lost.
mum missed a turning
and we ended up next to lake garden.
we very nearly ended up
on the seremban highway, too.
if it weren't for cj,
i wudn't have been able to go to the party at all.
mum was so pissed.

saw ow hsien loong and he's as hot as ever :)

21/08/2004, Saturday
exchange of goods took place:
lek soon got the iPAQ,
and me, some cash :)
church was nice.
got to see liz for the 1st time in >a week!
she had a very long testimony bout korea
and gave me pink shoelaces,
and a pair of cat earrings.
*blink*
i'm beginnin to see a blooming
affinity wif cat jewelry here.

22/08/2004, Sunday
woke up at 9am and rushed to 1u wif mum and mi.
bought the making beanie buddies craftbook
wif the money i got from selling the iPAQ.
mum was in an exceptionally shopping-happy mood.
she bought so many things that it quite scared me.

got home, slept abit,
and woke up to start making a teddy bear :)
finished it by 11:47pm.
it looks quite hideous, actually,
cos it's pink and wrinkled.
it reminds me of a newborn baby somewhat
cos its pinkness makes it look naked.
aiyer...
who'd ever want a teddy like that? :(

Today
yakkered wif liz all day :)
she kept giving out souveniors from korea like santa claus.

there wasn't gonna be 10th period,
but then we got a new kimia teacher :(
and we thought after honeystar left,
we'd be free like the little sparrows in the sky.

we spent more than a dollar in 10c and 50c coins afterward
to make unsuccessful phone calls to her mum
(to tell her there was 10th period after all).

then, we ended up eating french fries
while skiving 10th period.
hehe :)

*beams*
there can be no greater joy than wrappin presents.
it's just so... lovely!
it reminds me so much of christmas :)
and there can be no greater time than xmas, imho.

you get the joy of lookin at ur finished work,
and imagine the look on that person's face...
and your heart feels all warm and tingly and happy
and you just grow all soddified wif love and happiness :)

i'm gettin really emotional here, huh
*beams*
well, nyah! i don't care wut u think.
not today neway.
*beams again*

on a slightly more mellow note:
i invited >5 ppl to go out tml.
and everybody wif the exception of cow has ffk-ed me.

all i want is to spend some time wif u, that's all.
u dun even need to pay for the movie ticks.
just wanna get reacquainted.
catch up wif each other.

well. congrats la.
in my book,
you are
the greatest fren
ne1 cud have.
i just feel so blessed.

have fun tml.
and God bless you.

i've realised many things
about myself this yr
that i have either nvr known,
or have nvr wanted acknowledge before.

it's so hard to accept truths about urself.
esp truths that you don't particularly like.

u noe, it's weird
how u think you totally know urself inside out
when in fact,
the ppl around you can tell you more about urself
than you can.

i'm gonna list some of 'em out on this blog.
there's a certain solace
in seeing deep, dark, ugly things
in black typeface on white paper.
i think it's 'cos
when you see the ugly things in ur head
transposed onto paper,
it looks so much less ugly
than u thought they were.

hence, this list.
i hope the zyrk of yr 2005 will be
completely unable to relate to the zyrk of now
when she reads it again.

List : i...
1. am vain

2. constantly overdress

(liz assures me that this isn't such a bad thing)

3. am blunt/rude

4. whine/complain quite alot

5. am somewhat of a perfectionist

6. am impatient

7. am possibly growing dumber

(refer to report card)

8. am somewhat antisocial

(i refuse to elaborate on this)

9. am growing fat+unhealthy

10. lack empathy

the list could go on,
but i'll keep it to just 10 items
to save myself from any humiliation that might later arise
when i am once more in my right senses.

postscript:

certain items

(i.e. : laziness, irresponsibility, moodiness)

have been omitted due to

excessive reoccurences.

*yawwwnz*
got back from muar(, johor) an hr+ ago.
don't noe wut possessed me to come online,
considering i didn't sleep a wink on the way home.
*yaaawwwwnz*
must've been cow.
haih.

goin back to muar's always nice.
the otaks there are sooooo scrummy...
then again nearly all the food there is nice :P
long live kampung food!!
*yawwww...burp!...wwn*

bought some well-deserved underwear at last.
i really wonder wut is it kakak does wif my underwear.
all my bras are out of shape.
if it isn't the sponge, then it's the wires.
sometimes they're so out of shape
that it makes me wonder if putting them on
will cause my boobs to misshape too.
it's a very scary thought if u think about it.
one of them has even lost its strap.
Lord noes whut she's done wif it.
*bemused look*

and nearly all of my undies
have either been stretched so much
that they give my butt the illusion
of belonging to a sagging old woman's,
(ok, mebbe it just enhances the "illusion" :/)
or shrunk so much
that they leave angry sore marks on my poor body.
i am so being victimised here! :(
and by my underwear too.
urgh.
not anymore, you(evil underwear) don't!
thank God for my new extra-stretchy-material undies.
ha! now who has the last laugh, huh? huh?!
*glares at old offensive undies*

bleh, i'm actually musing about
my underwear in public.
i really need sleep.
nitey, all.

yday, after i got off the bus,
the guy i'd sat next to came running after me
and gave me a sanitary pad.

he said i'd dropped it :/
it didn't look familiar at all,
it wasn't even the brand mum normally buys.
but i was so sleepy and disorientated at the time
that i cudn't be 100% sure.

i told him it wasn't mine,
only i think i said it in such a way that
he prolly thought i must've been scrambling to cover
for my embarrassing slip-up.
he was grinning so much.

neway, as it turns out,
he said sorry this morning
cos he'd found out from another guy
that it was actually another girl's.

so silly la :P

just woke up from a 3-hr long nap.
i don't noe why is it so easy to sleep nowadays.
s'like i have a huge affinity wif my bed or sth.

think i've lost the passion to blog.
can't say whether it's a good/bad thing :P
i think it's cos when bad stuff happens,
i'm not inclined to publish it for all to see.
personal matters shud always stay personal, imho.

not that my last few days have been horrible,
cos they haven't.
it's just some small stuff happened
and along the way,
the need to see my thoughts/ramblings in black and white
just faded away.

got back my new south wales results today,
and i got 72/80, a distinction.
call me a perfectionist/competitive prick,
but i wasn't happy
cos i didn't pass my benchmark.
my benchmark was liz.
she got 73/80.
1 question is , apparently, quite enuff to demoralize me.

ended up going into some sort of warped depression
at which point i started going on about my future
and how i was going to make myself look drop-dead-gorgeous
so that i'd get hitched with some1 filthy rich
like *him*
(best to not mention names, tho i doubt he'd see this)
who'd be almost certain of associating
with dubious female characters after our marriage
(i'd hire a private eye to provide
the necessary evidence for the above statement)
so that i can sue him in compensation for his marital infidelity.
and after 95% of his wealth and property
has been compensated to me
so as to see that i am financially independant w/o him,
i shall divorce him and openly pursue
my hitherto secret affair wif cow.

if only, if only...
it all sounds so perfect, doesn't it :)
films like intolerable cruelty
are incredibly inspirational material.

dracula bit the wires
of our vcd player, tv and playstation
in half.

mum is very pissed.
she sez if he does sth like that again,
she'll wrap him up in a plastic bag and send him away.
i doubt she wud, really.
she doesn't dare to touch him.

we're calling drac a him again
bcos dad insists that he's male.
and who are we to argue with the head of the family anyway.
*shrugs*

everybody's been snappin at everybody today.
well, everybody with the exception of cus and mi la.
it's hard to stay sanguine and docile
when ppl are rude to you, you noe?
or when ppl have been complainin
about everything all day long.
it especially irks you (or me, anyway)
when ppl choose to pick on you
over matters that do not particularly concern you.

i'm complaining about my mum here.

it's true how they say
we pick up most of our bad habits from our parents.
if ever i were to blame nebody (apart from myself)
for my apparent bluntness and snappiness,
it'd be my parents.

they can be so uncultured and uncivilised.
mum and dad complain
about each other all the time
about the very same thing
one is complaining about the other.

it's so bloody ridiculous.

spent half my day in skewl yday
rushing to finish my zhou ji.
it was another 1 of those
"otherwise i will call your parents up" situations.
been happenin far too often lately for comfort.
at this rate i'm actually going to
finish my chinese hw each time now.

bleh.

but finishing 7 zhou jis within 4 periods
is extremely satisfying.
esp since i didn't cheat at all.
i wrote about real events/feelings
dated at approximately the correct time
and they were all more/less 2 pages long.

teacher commented
that my zhou ji entries were very real
and encouraged me to keep it up :)

it's really nice to noe your thoughts have been appreciated,
you noe?
especially when they've all been abysmally translated
from english words into (incorrect) chinese characters.
it tells you that the person reading your work
could understand whut u were trying to say
and can, in some way, empathise with you.

it's extremely gratifying.
i'm going to write my zhou jis regularly from now on.

they say
"paper is more patient than men".
but it wud appear that
paper is more patient than instant noodles too.
my bowl of cintan mee has gone all soggy
and resembles a platter of medusa's hair dyed yellow.

and all bcos i left it beside my monitor
while i worked on the script
for .5 hrs.
tsk tsk.
u wud think it'd keep itself hot and taut
for my personal enjoyment
as a reward for slaving over the script
from ever since i got back from skewl,
but noo...
it's gotta be like that.

i ate it all up anyway.
was too hungry to be turned off.

finally finished the script
esther asked me to write for church
at least 3 weeks ago.
she smsed askin for it last nite
and she didn't sound happy.
her longest msg was 5 words.
*wince*
i'm sure she's annoyed at me.
i pray she won't be for long.

it's about God's purpose in our lives.
spiderman is the lead character
and i made it so that he won some
superhero of the year award.
there's a superhero convention 2004
and daredevil is the one who speaks to spidey
about what on earth are we here for,
a.k.a. the purpose of life.

dunno la.
dun think i did a very good job
'cos the 2nd half of it's extremely boring imo.
but i hadn't much choice.
was sposed to keep the script within a certain time limit
and use the sermon notes esther passed to me.
it's 3 pages long.
i wonder how long that is irl.

God answered a prayer of mine yday.
was feelin particularly down in the dumps on monday
so i yakked it all out on email
and then prayed about it.
been backslidin alot...
it was the 1st prayer
i'd managed to finish
w/o fallin asleep 1/2way.
terrible, i noe :(

neway,
elaine lent me this christian storybook yday.
finished it at 11++pm and realised how touched i was.
the book left me
with such a sweet, sweet feeling
inside my heart.
it was...
warm and tingly and just so...wonderful.
it was, like cow sez sometimes,
as tho the very air i breathed was sweet.
it felt like God's love.

you noe sth...
when u're filled with God's love,
you'll find that you can love nebody.
it's a beautiful feeling.
i've nvr felt nethin so pure and lovely
inside of me before.
i was so touched by that book
and so filled with that sweet wonderful feelin
that i actually hugged my mum before i went to bed.
and i haven't done that since i was 3 or 4 yrs old.

to God be the glory.

thank you so much,
dear God,
for answering my prayers.
i realise now that you have nvr left me,
and that book was sent along my way by you
so that i may realise wut i need to do
to be close to you again.
thank you so much...
for your love.
i pray that i'll always feel it inside of me,
wherever and whenever i go.
i pray to be close to you always,
so that i may always feel that sweet wonderful
feeling inside my heart.
in ur wonderful name i pray,
amen.

tuit got cancelled today,
so here i am bloggin ^^
*beams*
guess wut mum just gave me?


hehe! and 5 of them too!

mum sez she'd prefer if i sold them
rather than use them
cos she sez i've gotta buck up and study liao.
so...
if any of you want 1 of these babies...
book em from me before 31 August 2004!*
*grinz*
1st come 1st serve basis only.
prices are at RM5/ticket.

* that is... if we don't use em 1st la *sheepish*

js's party yday was kewl.
took some pics but apparently RM160 cameras
do not work well at night :P
all the pics look extremely vague and abstract.
gives u a headache just lookin at em.
so wasted.

cecilie and liza (spell alert) left today...
liz wanted to talk to cecilie about God after skewl.
i wonder how it went.
here's wishing a safe journey to you both,
cecilie and liza :)
we thank God we got to noe you two.

my body aches like crazy from the weekend.
esp my calves.
i think jumped too much
durin the planet shakers concert,
and made it worse by playin bball wif jian wei yday nite.
bleh :P
and to think i'd lost 5-2 to him
even tho they'd all fong sui-ed the rules ledi.
so paiseh oni.

there was considerable debate
over draccy's gender today.
now,
nobody is sure whether drac is male or female.
it started when i was ticklin its
(for want of a better word) tummy
and realised it had nipples
along its belly.

furthermore,
draccy squats when it pees.
plus, it has no balls.

the said observations have caused quite an uproar.
mum doesn't want bondi humping draccy
and have more puppies crawling all over the place.

kakak perversely refuses to accept the fact
that draccy is obviously female.
she says that its balls will appear when it's old enuff.
i have nvr in my life heard of such an absurd thing.

bleh, my scanner stopped workin on me.
bloody. u just can't trust machines.
someday or other it'll screw up on u.
the worst thing is, i dunno why,
but machines piss me off alot more than ppl do.
so as of now,
i am pissed.

uninstalled, rebooted and am reinstallin now as i blog.
pls God, let it wor...
well, i'll be damned.
to God be the glory!
my scanner's finally workin!
*beams happily*

so scratch all that.

din mean to be in such a horrid mood yday.
was just... disgusted wif the world la.
and s'not a happy feelin.

i actually had a pretty nice day.
had addmath tuit in the morning
and i managed to understand nearly everything.
do u noe how lovely it is to feel
capable in addmath
(even if it's only a certain part of a certain chapter)?
it felt soo wonderful...

in church, i went for kingdom grace wif jamie
for the very 1st time.
it's pretty nice.
very helpful for spiritual growth.
s'sth like... learnin how to be a good Christian lidat.

we had high praise afterward wif the planet shakers.
i've nvr seen
so many youths fill the church like yday.
it was fantastic :)
u cud actually see the entire house hopping away,
screaming praise and worship.
and sooo many ppl were saved! :D
i think at least a coupla hundred accepted Christ.
damn, it rocked la :) :)

mei yii and hui yii invited me to dinner wif em after that,
and lek soon took us all to pyramid.
his gf, dot, went too.
it was the 1st time i'd seen her :)
we ate at the Manhattan Fish Market.
had oysters, calamari, dorry-fish (if that's how u spell it),
squid, garlic rice, and fries :)
pretty damned delicious hehe.

then today, E.T. brought me to watch catwoman in 1u.
it was a special screening,
and he had 4 passes.


halle berry is really really hot...
she's got the lips, the eyes, the curves and the moves.
it's a pretty good movie :)
albeit we missed the 1st 10 minutes or so.

goin to jian sheng's farewell party for cecilie in...
22 minutes.
gotta change clothes.
hehe my parents...
are half funny and half embarrassing.
yday hui yii had to pull on all her persuading powers
to get mum allow me to have dinner wif em.
and my mum actually asked to make sure
they wudn't SELL me.
sweet Jesus, it was so funny it tickled.

and just now,
when i was askin for permission to go,
dad made me get js's full name,
house address, house and hp number,
and perng(he's fetchin me there)'s
full name, house and hp number too.
dad is adamant that if i get raped and murdered,
these details will be essential
in the search for my nefarious assailant.

so,
wish me luck everybody!
pray i wun get raped and murdered!

i feel... so emotionally run-out somehow.
read some religious argument in cus' forum.
then cow sent me a link
about the inquisitions the churches used to hold
in order to wipe out heresy
and coerce non-christians into converting.

they used to torture ppl
who were found guilty of spreadin heresy.
torture is just a word.
you can't feel the pain and revulsion
when u read the word "torture".
u just understand wut it means
then acknowledge wut i say.
u just don't noe how repulsive it is
until u read about how they were tortured.

fuck the world, fuck the world.
we're all just so screwed up.
is it any wonder that we belong in hell?

why did God spare us
world-wide massacre?
why didn't He just kill us all?
He cud do that just by lifting a finger.
so why didn't He?

i mean,
we're not doing the world any good.
we're parasites.
stupid, immature, evil, repulsive
creatures.
we're wasting the world away.
killing each other,
killing everything.

fuck us all.

how did they ever come up with the word "inhuman"?
we as humans are already as "inhuman" as it gets.
it's so ironic.
"ungodly" wud be a better term.

argh,
i feel so screwed up.
fuck it all.

drac kept us up all night yday
cos he wudn't stop crying.
fortunately, nobody's holdin a grudge against him.
such are the powers of his sinfully cute eyes.

dad likes the name dracula,
so i guess we get to keep him as draccy now :)
kak and mi bought him a little red collar and leash today,
and he looks simply adorable.

bondi's kinda jealous of him i think,
cos we're makin such a fuss over him.
to make up for not payin as much attention to my baby,
i took some pics of him :)

i swear,
he's the most beautiful doggy in the world.
drac may be sweet,
but bondi is beautiful.
period.


*points at bondi and squeals like an idiot!*


*grins proudly*


*cuddles bondi tightly to chest*


*beams*

have some pics of draccy in his collar too,
but i'll post those another day.
this post is dedicated to my beautiful beautiful bondi only.

it's not 8:04pm anymore;
it's 10.22pm.
mum made me help her out wif some official documents.
and i've realised that i don't noe shit
about how to use microsoft excel.
ended up doing the spreadsheet in paint instead.
bleh.

thank God it came out official-lookin enuff.

i think i can understand how fun it is
to forge documents, like frank abagnale did.
was sposed to type out this entire page of legal crap
but i just photocopied the thing
wif a piece of paper over the title
so that it wudn't copy wif the rest of the text.
then i just printed a new title
onto the beginnin of the paper.

*grin*
very pathetically un-techie of me to use paint
for sth only rightly excel can accomplish, i noe...
but i'm proud of my forgin abilities hehe.

now let's hope i'll be able
to convincingly forge dad's signature on my report card,
before noon tml.

my new little puppy
looks remarkably like an oversized bat.
his ears are so big and always standing up,
and his tiny teeth are so white and sharp,
that you can't help being a wee bit unnerved
by his uncanny resemblance
to that of a bat.

hence,
i have dubbed him dracula :)
nobody in the house wants to call him that tho.
kakak adamantly refuses to name him
after a pontianak
and calls him only by "poppy".
mum thinks three syllables are far too much
for a wee little pup,
so she's gone and called him "coffee".

dun worry, tho :)
he'll be answering to only draccy in no time.
i'll see to that...

i have a love for nefarious characters, i think.
we used to have a tiny kitten named voldemort.
anyway,
took some pics of him wif my (new!) digicam :)
but i cudn't manage
gettin him to do his bat-look for my cam...
lil puppies barely ever sit still.


nuzzling the mat at the foot of our staircase.


he looks like a cat in this 1.


now tell me he isn't the sweetest thing :)

he's sleeping behind the computer table right now,
nestled inside the mass of wires :/
he kept nibbling at them just now.
drac's not allowed upstairs,
but he refused to stay dstairs
cos nobody's home but me atm,
and i'm up here bloggin away.

have u ever heard a puppy whine?
if u have,
u'll noe it's the hardest thing in the world to resist.

and who am i to deny
a sweet little bat-like darling
my company? :)

went to PC fair on sunday wif dad and cus.
the place was soooooooo packed
that u cudn't move anywhere
unless u squeezed in between ppl
and shoved others out of ur way.
not a very grand place to be, heh.
but neither of us cared :P
we all got wut we wanted.

and now i finally have a printer :)
a 3 in 1 printer-scanner-copier at that.
hee!
art can't be any easier at this rate :)

also got this digicam
that's tinier than my 8310.
the quality's not great,
but hell it's so nice and small ^^
and it only cost RM160!
i'm in love wif it.

got an mp3 player at last too.
it looks pretty ugly,
but it has so many unexpected functions
(equalizer, voice/song recorder)
that i'm not complainin nemore hehe.

cus got his radeon x9600 (i think) graphic card at last.
he and dad had to conspirate against mum
to sneak out after dinner to buy it.
tsk tsk.

so, yeah.
all oso very very happy la :)

and yday,
our handyman popped by in the middle of the night
to drop off a wee little visitor,
who's now gone and made himself a permanent resident
of the wong household :)
we've got ourselves a new puppy!!!!

he's black all over,
wif beautiful beautiful bright black eyes,
velvet nose and paws
and perky ears that go up and down all the time!!!
he's just sweeeeeet :)

haven't given him a name yet.
tried takin pics of him
but they all turned out too blur to publish :P

spent today's fire drill
shadow-hoppin wif liz.
we'd run up and sit right beside nebody
who had a shadow big enuff to shield us
from the Great Ball of Fire in the sky.

it was really funny :P
everytime someone moved away,
we'd get up and go shadow-spyin,
and 1ce we'd found a satisfactorily cooling spot,
we'd plonk right down again.

having abit of a sore throat still,
and i've been using up other ppls' tissue by the packets.
pray pray pray(!!!) i'll get better soon :(
i can't stand not being able to eat fried mee
for another week.

btw,
planet shakers
are comin to rock RLC this saturday!
bring all ur friends!
it starts at 4.30pm and u can leave anytime after that!
(of cos,
i'd recommend u stay
until u get ur free ice-cream and starbucks coffee ^^)

for more details,
TAG or E-MAIL me!
God bless!