i just noticed how incredibly yucky
i look in that pic with my tongue stickin out.
two long wrinkles
runnin' down either side
of my mouth.

yerr.
why la lidat?
my fingers are itchin so much to take that pic off.

had bm today
and i think this is the easiest paper
we've had all year.
do you noe how goood it feels
to be able to answer
nearly every other question? :P

granted,
i only had the foggiest inkling why
pak kaduk's kampung tergadai,
and hadn't foreseen konflik watak utama
coming out for this term's novel questions at all..

but.. i think i bs-ed convicingly enuff? :)

so, yay!
i'm gonna pass bm after all!
*beams*
was so afraid that i wudn't at first,
'cos i've only been borderline passin all yr.
haha! thank God ^^

liz is comin back today i think.
but so far i haven't heard a word from her.
hm, hm, hmz.

u noe the weird thing is that..
i haven't been missin her very much at all
these 3 weeks.

until today :P
until ever since i knew she was coming back
really really soon.

guess i've been enjoying my independence :)

speaking of which,
for this term's essay paper
i chose the question about
the person who has influenced you the most,
and wrote about liz.

wrote about how we met each other,
how we were like back then,
how we became the bestest of best friends,
how great the times we've spent together has been,
how we've both changed for the better
as a result of nearly 6 years of steadfast bestfriendship,
what we've planned for our futures...

and then i realised
that nearly throughout the entire paper,
i'd been referring to us.
and not her and me.

do u noe how incredibly freaky that is?

then i went on about
how sometimes i wasn't so fond of her,
because being as close with someone
as we were to each other
made us lose our individualities.

we're actually so different on the inside.
i love bright bold colours;
she loves black and pink.
i love eating fattening food;
she loves eating vegetables.
i'm good at math (or, i was);
she sucks at math.

i like basketball;
she likes frisbee.
i think cow is cute;
she soo doesn't.
but the latter may be excused :P

[plus:] our handwriting(s?)
are complete opposites of each other!!
mine are wide, short and round-ish;
hers are tall, thin and spiky-like.
it's really fun comparing our written work
side-by-side cos there's such a huge contrast :P
with her permission (she sure let 1 la),
i'll post a side-by-side comparison
of our handwriting here one day :P
promise.

oh, and we nvr agree on guys.
she thinks XXX is cute,
and i soo don't.
*gags*
i think YYY is cuter,
and (yup, u've got it) she sooo doesn't.

can u believe that
there are actually ppl out there
who call us twins?

pui mun once pointed to us
during a class game of charades
and everybody chorused "twins!"
without missing a beat.
the charade in question was
a movie/sth called twin lines.

ppl say we sound alike,
that we talk alike,
and some slightly more disillusioned creatures
even think that we look alike.

dominic called us
a unicell amoeba.
get that, no plural.
"we are a single
unicell amoeba."

then later on,
brendan had a nick that sed
schizophrenic amoeba.

and that just wrapped up
"how would you describe liz and krys
in just two words?"
beautifully.

can you imagine being referred to
as them, and not her?

can you imagine being asked
"where's your twin?",
everytime somebody doesn't see
your alleged 2nd half around?

can you imagine not being one,
but half?

so, yeah, that's what i'm talkin about.
our seemingly missing individualities.

but u noe,
i love lizzabutty to bits :)
and being best friends wif her
is one of the greatest blessings
God has endowed me.

so to heck with individuality.
i've had enuff of that for the last 3 weeks :)

ahh!
i can't wait to see her!!!!

hehe.
wait till she reads that essay :P

mei yii just sent me
some pics of saturday's concert :D
thank you soo much!

you noe, i really do love my church :)
lookin at all the pics
made me realise how proud i am of belonging to RLC.

but have to keep prayin la..
that the real reason i love church so much
is not cos it's so fun :P

neway,
here's the eyecandy :)

rock on, planetshakers!


colors of music :)
and this was just their practice session!
.......


this was during the concert :P
don't it get ur adrenaline rushin?
*hops around on 1 leg*
.......


ooh ooh! this's the only pic i have so far
where you can get a look at ps matt ^^
he's the one wif the white guitar.
not so much of a looker here,
but wait till i get my hands on a close-up.
*phwoaar!*
.......


in the dream center.
tian an doin the "L",
jian wei his innocent victim,
and sweet pretty mei yii
who sent me all these pics :P
.......


also in the dream center,
ushi and zyrk :)
got tongue?
.......

God bless!
and have a wonderful day! :)

church was sooo good today.

u noe, sometimes when i am in church,
i don't feel very much.
s'like, i can't really feel Him there
or am not really in the mood for anything...
i just sing along,
listen, and jot down notes.
nth really leaves a proper impression.
i mean, i do enjoy myself,
but i don't feel His Holy Spirit.

but today.
today was so different.
the planetshakers are awesome.
praise and worship felt so real somehow.
you just wanted to scream and scream,
lift up your arms and just lose urself.

you couldn't hold back
because you could actually feel
something that made you wanna give,
and give, and give ur heart out.
that was how it was for me,
and it felt absolutely great :)

ps matt (he's 20+ and really good lookin :P)
spoke abit during an interval.
didn't think he was a very good speaker at the time,
cos his msg was extremely short.
the points he made didn't have much of a flow
and he didn't leave an impact, imho.
i told cow that i thought
he could sing better than he could preach.
(he was quite an incredible singer,
and he could play the electric guitar to boot.)
*swoons* :P

wasn't plannin to stay for the seminar,
but then after experiencing
such a fantastic praise and worship session,
i guess i wanted to hear His Word too :)
s'like, when things are in full swing,
you just need/want to keep it going.
(it's sorta one of my policies.
once u catch hold of some momentum,
hold on to it.)

i'm soo glad i stayed back.
ps matt wasn't a bad speaker at all.
in fact he was really good.
could feel my heart drumming away
because i was so so touched.

he spoke about passion for souls.
he made us jot down
"Your life - A Ransom for Many"
as a title for our notes.
he sed, that we have to be passionate
about lost people,
in the same way we are about God.

a lil warning:
if this has been boring so far,
you're gonna have to bear wif more :P
cos i'm gonna share abit of what he spoke about.

if u've ever watched a show by mel gibson called ransom,
u'll noe that this man's son got kidnapped
and that the kidnappers wanted a great amount of money
in return for the boy.
in the end, ps matt sed that
the thing about the movie was that the man
was willing to do just about anything
to save his son.
he was even willing to let his life
be the ransom for his son.

in the same way,
our life should be a ransom for others.
we shudn't be living our life for ourselves,
but for Him and for the ppl of the world.
because when Jesus came to dwell among us,
he did not come to be served,
but to serve.

he told us a story about this man,
who met many of his old friends at the airport
just before he boarded his plane.
he found it really weird,
because it was too much of a coincidence
to bump into so many ppl he knew
in just the same day.

the time came for him to board his plane,
so he said bye to his friends
and went to the terminal.
the security guy needed to check
everyone's boarding pass before they could board,
so he reached into his jacket for his.
but when he pulled it out,
he saw that he had two boarding passes.

one had his name on it,
but the other had his father's.
he didn't know what to think.
in the end,
he just gave the security guy his boarding pass
and went onto the plane to his seat.
then he opened up his hand luggage
to keep his father's boarding pass,
to find the entire bag filled.
with thousands and thousands of other ppl's
boarding passes.
including his old friends'
whom he'd just talked to earlier.

after staring blankly at the passes
for nearly 5 minutes,
he realised what was happening
and he started crying.

ps matt said,
without a boarding pass,
no security guy will ever let u
across the terminal
to board ur plane.

we christians already have
our boarding passes to heaven.
thing is,
we carry other ppl's boarding passes with us
all the time.

by the time we are in heaven,
we may look into our pockets,
our hand luggage,
and find a whole bundle
of other ppl's boarding passes still with us.
by then, we'll find that we'd
lost the chances to give them
their boarding passes
while we were still wif them.

with just some words,
some movement of ur lips and a little prayer,
you could give everybody their boarding passes,
he said.
"you know where
their boarding passes are?
they're in your mouth."

but what if, you think,
what if you can't do it?

when moses saw the burning bush,
(remember the Prince of Egypt?)
God spoke to Him and told him to go to the pharoah.
He told moses to make the pharoah "let my ppl go".
moses was just a shepherd at the time,
he didn't have any amazing abilities
or any fantastic persuasiveness.

how will i do this?, he asked.
God told him to look at what was in his hand,
and moses saw his staff.
it was an ordinary wooden stick.

but later on, moses could turn it into a snake,
and even use it to part the Red Sea.

God has put a staff in all our hands,
ps matt sed.
we all have abilities.
something at which we are better at
than others.
perhaps our abilities aren't great enough
for the world to recognise us by,
but "what is ordinary,
God will make extraordinary."

just like the stick in moses' hand.

ps matt sed so many so many things
that i want to remember in my heart always.

it's just so good to noe Jesus.
without Him, life would be so...
purposeless somehow.
it's true that only in Christ Jesus
can you find peace.
right now, i am at peace
and it's a beautiful beautiful feeling.

dear Father in heaven,
thank you so much.

From: Lovingforyou
Date: [9-10-2004 5:23 AM]
Subject: Care to share alone with me?????
________________________
Hi Gal,

Thanks for accepting me......
if you are keen to share alone with me
for fun and pleasures.....
feel free to drop me a mail
to lovingforyou@hotmail.com.........
hope to hear from you soon........
bye.......take care......

Andy

***

geez, what is with some ppl??
this guy's almost definitely some.. some...
some perverted freak who's advertising for sex or sth.
"fun and pleasures"??
bleh.

haven't been to either of my hi5 and friendster accounts in months.
right now, i'm reading through the msgs in my inbox
and accepting requests.

it's nice seeing the numbers go up on your friends list.
and it's always nice to see bundles of msgs in ur inbox,
and the abundance of requests waiting for ur approval.
(which is why i always accept requests :P)

it makes you feel important or sth.
approving requests, ha.
to think that krystle wong kai li is in any position
to approve requests.
hehe, it sounds so official :P

and it's pretty nice to noe
that most of the ppl hu add you
almost definitely do it only because they like ur pic.
s'like feeding sweet sweet candy to a baby :P
the baby in this case being my vanity hehe.

but u noe, it gets pretty insulting after a while.
and after you realise the real deal,
you don't care for checking on your accounts nemore.

nobody who msgs me seems to noe exactly how old i am,
or what is it i like to do,
even tho it's all there on my profile.
it's half insulting and funny.
some of them even ask for my name,
when it's already staring at them in the face.

makes you wonder if they can't be any more obvious.
the worst is that when you go to see their profiles,
you find that their entire friends list is compiled of pretty girls.
or at least, photogenic ones.
haiyor.

but ppl who compose msgs like the above
qualify for a distinction of serious indiscretion.

some guys ppl can be such morons.
how can you hope to noe somebody better
when you can't even get their name or age right?
even tho it's staring right back at you?
*glare*

for those of you to whom this applies:
if you're out to find a friend or something more,
be smarter abit.
it really puts ppl off (or it does for me, at least)
when you commit the following faux pas.
whether u want it or not,
here's some

Advice
1. get the name right.
2. read the profile, damn it.
3. don't ask whether she has a bf.
4. do not mention sex or nethin that may be mistaken for sex.
5. don't keep badgering on for a phone number.
6. take a hint and give up after not getting a reply for 3 months.
7. don't ask for a date/yamcha session/outing.
8. don't ask for more pics.

*re-reads*
yeah i think that's it.

yee this post sounds so vain and narcissistic.
pls forgive me,
but i had fun constructing it
*sheepish look*

and now, since i seem to be lacking in some moral values myself,
i shall start studying my moral textbook now :)
exam's tml as it is...

God bless, ppl.

no prizes for guessing where i am now.

had physics and modmath today
and imho,
modmath sucked more than physics.

so far,
i think the best i've done is for chem,
and the worst *sniff!*, bio.

it's so much easier to memorise
when everything makes sense.
and imho, nth in bio makes much sense at all.
the only best way to study bio
is by accepting everything
without questioning too much.
and u can't even form linkages between most facts!

or mebbe i'm just somewhat vacant between the ears
and am only trying to justify myself :(

moral and EST's tomorrow.
if i don't get above 19 for moral this term,
i will carry out my flight of suicidal romance.

remember me in thy prayer.

'lo, ppl :)
sposed to be memorizing sej,
but this is more fun ^^
guess what?
more pics today! :P

walked past the cupboard in the hall just now
and looked properly
for the 1st time in years
at all the pictures there.
we look sooooo sweeet!! :)

or at least, cus and mi do, heh.
the only ones of me that look sweet imo
are those of my babyhood :/
but hopefully(?)
it's just a oneself factor thing la :P

enjoy!
(and um, don't forget to pray
for my our exams, k?)
*blinkz*

............


the precious artefact above
is likely the only thing we still have
from any of our kindies :P
it's a page of mimmle's 1st scrapbook.
that's her on the slide
and us three during mi's third birthday.
............


cus and his first love at age 5 :)
............


hehe, betcha 5 bucks u can't find me :P
............


cus and me at ages 3 and 6.
i think :P
(who says i wasn't fat?!)
............


saved the best for last :P
that's mum, dad and me.
take a really goood look!
i won second place! *grinz*

one day,
i shall follow in the steps of tom sawyer
and run away from home for a few days,
to a remote island on the lake
wif huckleberry finn to play pirates.
everybody will think that i'd "drownded"
and have the beds of the river dragged
from dawn till dusk,
in the hopes of finding
my poor lifeless body
and to see the picture of wasted youth
on my pretty face
for the very, last, time.

or maybe,
i shall surpass
that of even tom sawyer's melodrama
and find a way to bypass the security guards
at the petronas twin towers.
i shall take the elevator to the highest floor
at the very pinnacle of the two pointy things,
clasp my faithful yellowing bolster
to my chest and cry a single solitary tear
so that it'll roll all the way down the side of my cheek,
off the edge of the building,
and into the sweet abyss of high altitude.
a single, glistening droplet
spinning through the air,
plummeting past 88 floors
before it hits the cruel tarmac below.
then, after birthing my last tear,
i will lift my wee foot off
the edge of the building,
and fall gracefully to the heart of gravity
like a dying swan
shot in the heart
by the bloodlust of mankind.

and then,
when dad gets a phone call
from the state police
saying that his barely 16 year old daughter
had been in an accident,
he'll be so distressed and rush over in the unser,
breaking all the speed limits along the way.
and all the while,
he'll be wildly imagining
all the horrible things that must've happened to me.
then, when he comes to the feet
of the glowering, towering twins
and sees the hollow, bloodied shell
of my once radiant soul;
sees my clouded eyes wide open
and full of sorrow,
he'll break down and cry
and feel his heart break wif belated regret
over all the times
he's sed and done
those highly inconsiderate and unkind things
to me.
clouds in the darkening sky
will slowly part
and shining teardrops from heaven
shall surely fall onto the sa...

*film is abruptly cut*
................................

*sighs*
these are delicious imaginings,
but i don't believe they're very practical
when it comes to real life.
ahem.

first of all,
i do not want to have
"the mask of death
upon my youthful face".
at least not before i hit 21
or marry the love of my life and have his kids anyway.
and even then,
i certainly wudn't be considered
youthful anymore.

and really,
dying after you
can't fit into a size 28 anymore
rather takes the alleged romance
out of suicide.

plus, death seems so prevalent nowadays.
unless i were like 1 of those poor russian kids
who'd died to the wicked hands of terrorists,
my death (regardless how timely or devastating)
wud prolly take up little more
than a coupla discreet inches
of condolence in the local papers.

and need i mention
that dying almost definitely hurts
more than recieving a jab from a syringe?

and(!),
no matter how beautiful and well-meaning
the orchestration of my death is,
i'll end up in the pits of hell anyway
because liz says (and i agree) that only God
decides when anybody is going to die.

such is the unromantic world
that which we live in today.

but then,
i really really don't wanna die.
and i can't imagine dad crying anyway :)

imagining can be so fun.
it takes away all the pissy annoyance you feel
after your dad tells you to shut up
when you're trying to tell ur mum sth.

and it helps you
forgive he who very inconsiderately closed
ur browser window,
before u had a chance to save
your unsaved(!!!)draft,
during one of his more intolerable moods.

so yeah,
i think i've managed
to find a creative outlet
for my anger now.

7.09pm.
and i'm still in the office.
ageh-yen-yen-yen-yennn...
*bangs head on keyboard*
Sweet Jesus,
pls make it so that we can go home soon :(

shudn't be complaining,
cos i have my physics ref wif me.
shud be studying,
not "onlining".
esp since physics is very nearly my weakest subject.
and the exams start next monday.
phleh.

i've been staring at the compy
for 3 hours nonstop now.
i can practically feel
my eyebags sagging(!)
weightily beneath my eyes.
and they're getting heavier and heavier
with each passing minute i spend
staring at this monitor.

can you feel it when u're turning unhealthy?
cos right now, i really believe i can.
*blinkz*

been surfing around la.
and i guess my time spent online
has been educational in some sense,
cos now i noe:
1. 5 different ways to view source :)
2. almost 5 ways how not to let ppl view ur source (more/less la)
3. at least 5 reasons why u shudn't not let ppl view ur source :)
(or more importantly, disable right-click)

in case u're wondering,
i didn't purposely set out to research for all that :P
tho if i am to be honest,
it does lie in my interests.
was at (don't u dare laugh) lissaexplains,
and somehow got directed to some forum afterward.
then this thread
looked so promising that i cudn't help poppin in :P

the ppl who frequent there sound like utter geeks :P
albeit very experienced and pretty impressive ones.
they seem to know sooo much.

funny thing tho: when i told cow,
he didn't seem very impressed at all.
in fact, he zhatted everything.
phleh!
duwan share stuff like this wif him liao.
he spoils all the fun.

i'd always thought school was a waste of time,
but now it seems even more so.
the teachers who have finished the syllabus for this yr
don't teach or do anything much anymore,
so half our day was almost exactly like having relief.
really shudn't have gone to school.

ooh, and u noe wut?
all my life,
i'd nvr accepted the fact that
sleeping and waking up early
is really good for ur health.
until this week.
have barely felt so perky and awake before.
didn't sleep or feel sleepy in school at all today
and i cudn't stop yakkering either :)

i think the perfect hours
to sleep and wake up are 10+pm and 9am.
(alright, so it's nearly 12 hours of sleep,
but this is personal experience speaking here!)
you feel so awake the next day
and don't have to force urself to get up at all!
*beams*
so u see, i really think
our school hours are absolutely screwy.

and i've been eating 2 apples a day
for the whole week
(mainly cos it's alot more convenient
than cookin maggi mee when i'm hungry)
so now my cheeks are rosier! :D
even ayi, yunn hwa and kien soon said so.

so, :) here's:

Zyrk's Golden Advice
:: an apple a day keeps the doctor away ::
and leaves you (literally!) in the pink of health!
:: sleep and wake up early all your life ::
and you'll be as happy, perky and awake as can be :)

have a wonderful day! :D

i half regret not goin skewl today.
apparently the english week competition results
were announced and i got 2nd place for sth.
cow can't remember whut exactly,
*sideways look*
and neither can jeff fu or shi jin.
i, want, to, knowww!!!

and our class got 2nd place for NiE (inter-class only :/)!
so everybody got RM10 pizza hut coupons
even tho 50% of them did nth *sulk*
it irks me abit to think that all that hard work
has more or less gone down the drain...
just like that.
bleh :(

i had the weirdest dream this morning.
you see, in 1 of the books in the bible: revelation,
it speaks of God coming to rapture his church.
it marks the beginning of the 7 yr tribulation.
and it's when the antichrist emerges
and a whole lot of horrible disastrous things (tribulations) happen.
earthquakes, floods, plagues, wormwood,
pale horses of death, apollyon and so on.
all following the very pages and chapters of revelation.

(ask liz or tian an for one of the left behind series,
if u're interested.
i found out alot that way.)

there's been alot of speculation over
when this will happen,
but so many, so many pastors and preachers
say that this is the generation
when the end times are coming.

it's freaky.
a speaker once testified that he'd seen the armies
God'd prepared in heaven already
and that He's only just waiting
for his people to be ready.

i don't noe wut to believe.
i don't even really want to believe.
i pray i won't live to witness the rapture
or the tribulations :(
i'm surer beyond sure that i'm not ready,
and i'm not sure if i even want to be.
*involuntary shudder*
i feel chilly.

anyway(!), on with my dream.

i dreamt that we were halfway thru the tribulation,
and that one of the worst things were going to happen.
there was this huge secret space beneath liz's house.
(don't worry, butty.
in my dream, it wasn't ur real house now :P)
it was sth like from the left behind books,
where rabbi tsion ben-judah hid
from the global community (GC) forces.
we (believers) were all going to hide there
till the worst was over.

not everybody knew about it.
i knew cow didn't,
and i was soo afraid they wud seal off the entrance
before he and his family got there in time.

so amidst the flurry and panic to pack up
and go below ground,
i managed to borrow somebody's hp
and call him.

three rings,
and his mum picks up.

*******
"hello?"
"hello? may i speak to cheng leong?"
"ok, hold on."

*seconds later*

"i'm sorry, who's this?"
"um, it's krystle."
"oh. um, he's left to australia already."
********

the shock that hit me,
i can't quite describe.

i cudn't speak.
i cudn't think.
i cudn't breathe.

it sounded so much as tho his mum'd gone
and forced him to leave for australia
'cos i knew he wudn't leave just like that.
i'd just seen him the day before.

when it hit me that it was probably true,
cos during the tribulation
most flights were booked with people trying to escape fate,
i just started cyring.

i don't know...
in my dream, i cried so hard
that i could feel it hurt in my chest.
u noe,
most of the time when u're dreaming,
u noe that it's a dream.
and it was true this time.
only,
even tho i knew it was a dream,
it still hurt sooo much.

it was like,
i'm never going to see him again
and there were invisible lines tugging, tugging
at the sides of my lips
and i cudn't, cudn't unscrew my face
or shut up bawling and sobbing.

i woke up appreciating him soo much.
*hugs the ushi tight*

"i believe you don't know what you've got
until you say goodbye."
- affirmation, savage garden-

update: tada! the cf form 89% complete :)
pls leave comments!



update #2: guess who? :)

*screams!!!!*
lizzy tagged!!!
she tagged in my tagger!!
do you hear me?!?!
she is aliiiiive!!!
*beams all over*

and she's using
the blog i made for her!!!!
so happy ^^!!!!
*reads again*
whoa, that's alot of exclamation marks :P

go see her blog!
i nvr knew how fun japan could be :)
i always thought it'd be like a jap-version of NYC
but it seems soo real!

public baths and paddy fields?
waking up at 6am and sleeping at 9pm?
whoooo...
sounds like health camp :P

and she gets to skip finals :(
and gets to check out cute guys ...
and make new friends...
*sniffles abit*

damn, butty,
i'm sooo envious :P
i've been spending half my weekend
forcing myself to memorise sej
and making the cf camp form.
do you know how freakin blessed you are?!
*SCREAMS!*

wanted to use photoshop for the form,
but i didn't have a cd key that wud work
so i ended up using some kiddy
American Greetings Creatacard program.
so... the results are extremely
kiddyish la :P

here's a screenshot of the form in Creatacard:

there are 3 sections
to make it look like a brochure.
hehe very unclear here, i noe.
how much over 10 would you give
for the overall kiddiness of it all?
i say 8/10.

s'not the final version tho.
still need to add in chinese words
and make a small section
"for CF management only".

bondi and draccy had a field day today.
they both managed to come in the house
and violate all restricted perimeters.
got a whole bundle of pics of them
in almost every room of the house,
but am gonna post only 1
cos they wudn't hold still long enuff
for the camera for there to be any clear shots.


here's the sweetest, most decievingly innocent pic
of mimmles and draccy in our room.

pics pics and more pics...

i just made 2 fantastic discoveries! :D
hello and yahoo! briefcase.
they're both gonna make things sooo much easier
for everybody :)
esp if you're an avid blogger
or somebody who needs constant access
to his/her files from anywhere :P

gonna change the credits
at the bottom of the sidebar
to include hello
because uploading images cannot be easier than this :)
it's fast, simple and totally effective!

you've gotta trust me on this 'cos
i've already taken the opportunity to test it out
various times :P
i'm sure you can see wut i mean hehe.
*peeks below*

i've always enjoyed lookin at pics on ppl's blogs,
esp those which show a little of that person's world.
friends, classmates, sisters, brothers, pets...
all that :)

it makes things
so much more intimate and personal sumhow.
s'as tho you can understand that person a lil bit better
just by looking at few snapshots of his/her life.

took especial care
to only upload pics of ppl and stuff
i've mentioned before
so you guys won't look at these ppl and go:
"hm. you're all strangers to me."

i hope you guys enjoy :)

my bed and bolstie :)

the usual sight of mi and ayi at 2am

marcus watching tv :P

the two little orphan girls on my bus :)

zheng de (left) and tian an (right)

me being a good girl :)

me being not such a good girl :P

liz (right) and me (left)!

mimmles hugging what's-his-name :P

pui mun (right) and yunn hwa (left).

Birthday Piccies and Then Some

there's been quite a hullabaloo over
the S.H.E lantern bash hehe.
apparently the ppl at sunway lagoon wudn't
admit anybody cos there were too many ppl,
so everyone started a great ruckus.

kuok pin and his 40++ friends
wif whom he shared 8 tickets
(1 ticket admits 6, u do the math)
called mum and through her,
located one of her S.H.E-devoted employees
amongst the crowds at the entrance.
they then started crowding around him and rioting
over the fact that they'd been waitin for a few hours already.

michael succinctly called mum up and sounded
utterly harrassed+overwhelmed
with handling nearly 50 adolescents
who were practically howling abuse.

in the end, mum called up uncle steven from maxis,
threatened to call the press and report a scandal.
10 minutes later,
kuok pin called and screamed gratification down the line :)
mum came to understand that
everyone had been admitted after all.

i sincerely hope the rest of the ppl i sold tickets to
waited long enuff at the entrance...
yunn hwa and pei qi sed that they'd ended up buyin tickets
and that the concert sucked neway
cos S.H.E. came late and only stayed for 1/2 an hr.
but they got a free lantern la :P

i feel bad.
it's as tho i've cheated them or sth :/

neway, here're some birthday pics :)
all taken in the dining room.
enjoy!


that's mum and mi lightin up the cake :)
can you see the pink teddy i made
lyin at the end of the table?
*beams*


the quality is pretty shoddy,
but it looks like magic to me :)
the cake has the vaguest hint of floatin in the air hehe.
you can see
part of my addmath project and my hp
at the bottom of the pic.


a close-up of the blueberry cheese cake
*sniff*
can you see!??!?!
the guy at secret recipe spelt my name wrong!!!

there's also a .5 minute video of me cuttin the cake,
but i dunno how to publish that
so tuff luck :P
anybody care to help?

An Unwanted Affinity with Mum's Office

i seem to have an unwanted affinity
wif my mum's office.
6.33am since i left the house,
and i haven't been back since.

the chronology of my daily life
barely ever differs *sulk*
[1st] skewl, [sometimes] 10th period, [afterward] tuition,
and [then] an abundance of exceedingly tedious waitin
in the office for mum and ayi to finish their work.
blargh.

hopefully, we can leave soon.
hopefully.
*whines unhappily*

finally started studyin yday.
didn't make much of a headway,
but they always say the 1st step's half the journey.
sweet Jesus, pls let it be true :(

i asked jameson for a list of things
we had to study for this term yday and
i swear,
the syllabus for this terms exam is gonna kill me.

Exam Syllabus
Addmath - Everything
Modmath - Everything
Biology - Everything
Moral - Everything
History - Babs 7 ~10
Chemistry - Babs 1 ~ 8
Chinese - [almost] Everything
Malay - [Sastera] Everything
Physics - [likely] Everything

*moooooans*
the devil himself
must've possessed me to take sciences.
wtv made me think i cud do it?!
physics??
chemistry??
addmath????

i don't think i'm stupid...
but phys, addmath and chem
are uncomfortably convincing alot of the time.
i have nvr in my life
felt as dumb as this before
i met my 3 nemesis-es.

u noe... i believe that,
prolly, if i'd kept up to speed all the while...
listened in class, did my hw...
attended tuition regularly...
i wudn't feel this way.

but, damn :(

alot of the time i really wonder
if i'd made the wrong choice
comin to a science class.
art has always been my forte
and i wonder if i shud've just kept it that way.

but no turnin back now, i guess.
it'd be like giving up,
and that'd suck donkey balls.

mmm.
thank God it's not SPM.
can't stuff the idea of cramming 2 yr's worth
of formulas, laws, theories and facts
into a lil less than 2 weeks.

here's to you Form 5-ers,
for whom i have
the utmost respect and sympathy...
may you find the discipline to study hard
and the wisdom to understand
everything.
God bless you
and may He make a way for us all.
*discreet sniff*

Amen.

BookCrossing - Hunt for Books left in the wild around the world - FREE YOUR BOOKS!

when i took the new south wales exam,
i read about BookCrossing:

*** *** ***
What is BookCrossing, you ask?
It's a global book club that crosses time and space.
It's a reading group
that knows no geographical boundaries.
Do you like free books?
How about free book clubs?.
Well, the books our members leave in the wild are free...
but it's the act of freeing books
that points to the heart of BookCrossing.
Book trading has never been more exciting,
more serendipitous, than with BookCrossing.
Our goal, simply,
is to make the whole world a library.
BookCrossing is a book exchange
of infinite proportion,
the first and only of its kind.

The "3 Rs" of BookCrossing...
1. Read
a good book
2. Register
it here (along with your journal comments),
get a unique BCID (BookCrossing ID number),
and label the book.
3. Release
it for someone else to read
(give it to a friend, leave it on a park bench,
donate it to charity, "forget" it in a coffee shop, etc.),
and get notified by email
each time someone comes here
and records journal entries for that book.
*** *** ***

it's really really kewl!
liz found a BookCrossing book sitting on the hood
of her mum's car the other day,
and tml she's going to 1 of KLIA's ladies' toilet
to look for another 1 hehe.

the person who thought of this idea
was a great great man :) or woman.
he or she must think beautiful thoughts.
imagine sharing ur books wif everybody in the world!

*beams*

been helping cow scan physic notes
then send them to him thru gmail n msn msgr all night.
[look at the time!!!!!]
he cudnt find his form 4 phys notes again it seems,
and his physics exam is tml mornin.

such desperation...
such futility...
such last minute work...
such... ushi-ness...

bwargh! i'm extremely tired.
i so don't envy him.
exams are abysmally sucky :P

Dan Brown's Angels and Demons. (or is it Demons and Angels? *blinkz*)

i thought i was engrossed
when i read about tom, huck and injun joe.
but after dan brown's angels and demons,
(or is it the other way around?)
i think the term "engrossed" shud be re-evaluated.

nvr in my life
(at least, i think so)
have i ever read such an engrossing book.
or mebbe engrossing isn't the word i'm lookin for...
cos wut i felt while reading that book
was definitely stronger than just being engrossed.

ok la, let's put it like this:
i was completely riveted.
i started reading it around 1pm on saturday,
and i cudn't put it down afterward.
i brought the book to church,
and after that to dinner,
even tho i knew i wudn't be able
to read it at the time neway :P

the plot is superbly ingenious.
the book must've taken dan brown
ages and ages to write.
the research...
the planning...
the mapping...
everything!
he's a story-plotting genius.
i am(or i was, neway) in total awe.

the things which took place in his book
were like a long, long line of dominoes.
a dominoe would tip,
and the rest would follow in quick succession.
they just kept going and going and going...
blows which u didn't see coming
just kept flowing one after another.
the action simply did not stop.

i stayed up till 4am yday
just reading this book :P
u noe those horrible suspenseful moments,
which horror movies always serenade wif eerie music?
before a dead body or something extremely gruesome
comes in view on the screen?

u get that instinctive twisting, and churning
in your tummy
that leaves u extremely frattered and paranoid.
you're just so terrified
cos u noe sth bad's gonna happen.
and yet u cannot take ur eyes away from the screen
cos u refuse to miss anything.

i felt like that yday.
was so freaked that i felt as tho
i might see a dead man hanging,
suspended from the sides of the ceiling
by wires tied to his wrists,
bleeding scarlet droplets on the floor before my bed,
if i let my eyes leave the pages of the book
for even a second.

my heart thumped so hard then, that it felt quite painful.
*shivers appreciatively*
it wasn't a scary book.
but there were many parts that left me actually holding my breath.
not many books can do that.

yeeee!! :)
so happy.
i love reading so much.
can't wait to feast on the da vinci code.

Thank u all so much!!!

i am so besottedly happy !!!!
i really really didn't expect all this!!!!
it's 10.30pm and i'm still in uniform,
i've been rushing to complete
that [confounded/overdue] addmath project
all day after skewl wif yunn hwa
and i only got home an hr or two ago!!!!

i can't remember the last time
i was in uniform for so long
and yet still be so happy!!!!!

cow told me to go online today
and so while i'm [still] waitin
for mum to finish usin the loo so i can bathe,
i popped on to check mail/blogs and stuff
and this reli familiar girl
in a party hat juz jumped out at me!!

this prolly sounds extremely stupid now,
but yday i thought that today might be horrible
and i might end up crying :)

i did come close to crying,
but i didn't!
and it was bcos i was touched :)
not unhappy.
and it happened more than 1ce too.

i'm such a crybaby.
waaa waaa, hehe but i dun care!

i'm in that
i'm-so-happy-that-i-totally-love-the-world mood atm.
*beams*

i love YOU!!!

u hear me??!?
i love YOU,
and YOU, and YOU,
and YOU, and YOU, and YOu,
and YOU, and YOU,
and YOU, and YOU, and YOU,
and YOU!!!!!!

i love every single 1 of you!!! :D :D
and right now,
i honestly completely utterly totally absolutely 100%-ly
mean every one of those seven [heaven!-ly] words :)

thank you.
thank you all so much for everything
for the calls, the msgs, the greetings,
the presents, the cards,
but most of all...

thank you!:)
for ur friendship
and all that u've been, and still are, to me.

Mooz all! *grinz*
i feel like an intruder, i wonder why :P
Anyway...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRYS!!!

if u hadnt noticed the changes,
perhaps you will now :)
it's not much, bloody comp died on me
the day i was doin this.
Just imagine confetti
flowin down the page :P
Was gonna get the applet for that
but trials are in the way.
Wud've loved to spend the day with u too
but (read above)
So this is just a lil sth,
to letcha know i havent forgotten,
Even tho i'm ole
Sincerely hope my color choices
were good enough this time round,
Guess my mum nvr taught me how to dress,
considering how bad her taste is
when it comes to clothes :P
Neway,

Have a wonderful birthday!! :)
*mmmmmmmmmmmuakz!*
And save the lecture on the blogger breach
till the nxt day yeah?
*mmmmmmmmmmmuakz!* again.

Love,
Cow