hey all.
haven't been bloggin for awhile.
stuff happens sometimes
that u just don't feel like sharing,
happy or sad.

s'just to say..
this will be my last post
on zyrked du femininny la..
for now.

been bloggin for nearly a year,
and it's kinda reached a point
where i'd like a little
privacy or sth..

life's gotten kinda
so that i don't feel much
like bloggin for everybody to know anymore.

neway,
thank you so much
to all you dear friends
who've been reading this blog all along.

u made life sparkle
abit more than it wud allow
for me :)

prolly gonna start a new blog
which won't be made public..
but i dunno yet.

and anyway
sooner or later,
zyrked.blogspot.com
will be back in motion for all to read.
just prolly not as zyrked du femininny
anymore.

so... wait k? :)

i'll be waiting too.

till my next post.
love you all,
and God bless.

thank you soo much!
to everybody who bothered to comment,
and check neopet's real faeries
for a comparison :)

ppl like you make my day
a hundred times over and over...
God bless you truly :)

just read thru liz's blog,
and her latest post is about her lifeplan.

she actually planned out her nett worth
(10 million by the age of 30 *goggle*),
all the names she wants to call her (5!!!) kids,
when she's going to retire (age 60),
where she's going to buy her vacation home
(a house on stilts by the beach, like in hawaii..)

[warning: very extremely long and
potentially boring post,
musing about my future
and all that. only proceed at ur own risk.]

you know it's so scary planning out
something you may never achieve :(

when the guy in dodgeball told the pretty lawyer
that he preferred not to set goals for his life,
because it would create a possibility
for him to feel like a failure...
i could actually relate.

sometimes i think i must
be 1 of the most kiasu ppl i noe.

i'm a very very sore loser
(just ask cow, ugh)
and i hate thinking/knowing that someone i know
might be better than me
at something that i care passionately about
(id est: drawing)

so if i were to plan out my life..
as thoroughly as liz did..

and to find, 20 yrs from now,
that i have failed to achive it..

i might just throw myself off the kl tower :(

yet if i think about it..
i'm nvr going to be able to go anywhere
if i don't know where i want to go..
and that's worse
because by the age of 60,
i'd be all old and wrinkly,
shaking my head and telling my kids
"i wish i had tried."

so.. here's to my life..
and all the good things that i want to come with it.
*deep breath*

Krys' Lifeplan
i plan to study and work hard.
my results suck now, but
i don't plan for them to suck for SPM.
or even STPM.

if i can't manage to get a scholarship
for a college/university that has real standard,
i will move on to form 6
and get all the A's i need
to get into a real university.
local or overseas, it doesn't truly matter
so long as i get to study wut i want - properly.

along the way, i'll take up a whole
bunch of miniature courses
like painting, knitting, basket-making,
jewelry-making, graphics design and all the rest.
so that when i'm old, i won't be bored :P

in the end, tho,
i want to major in english and arts.
english will probably be my main course
and i'll take an art course alongside that,
however that's done.

i want to be able to write,
and write really, really well.
i don't need to be able to write a novel,
but i definitely want to be able to write
well enuff to get some of my work published
in magazines like the readers' digest.

that way, if my foray into the
art world doesn't work out,
i'll still have something to sustain a living with.

and i want to be able to draw.
not just pretty girls and cute furry animals..
not just little eyecandy cartoons..
not just amazing marvel comic characters..

i want to be able to draw anything i want,
and not have to improvise in order to
get what i want to achieve.
i want to be able to look at something,
think "how beautiful",
and be able to capture every bit
of its beauty on paper.

but ultimately, my dream job wud be
to work as 1 of those disney animators,
or to draw comics for a certain company.
i'd love to do that for a living,
if i have what it really takes :)

and i want to tinker wif designing too.
thru painting or computer graphics, anything.
i'd try submitting my work to book publishers
and greeting card companies.
i want to design the cover of a book,
a greeting card, wrapping paper,
bookmarks, notebooks..
wudn't it be so very cool to design your own merchandise? :)

hehe.. i remember once upon a time,
liz and i promised we wud try to set up
our very own giftshop,
where everything wud be designed by me
and marketed by her.
it wud be a christian giftshop
that wud also attract non-believers

neway,
i probably won't marry until i have
completed my studies, and secured a
proper job plus a steady income...
that is, unless mr. future husband
happened to be immensely rich,
and cud afford to not have too
many nocturnal nights (ahem),
while i'm studying or working late nights :)

i want to marry at least before i am 29,
and be happy married :)
our relationship wud be 1 of real understanding,
care, love and tolerance for each other.

we will agree to not have kids
until we are financially secure and
live in our very own house, which
will be completely and utterly furnished
by the both of us :)
it must have lots of green plants
and be very cosy and comfortable..
oh, and i don't like antiques so there prolly
won't be many around in our home :P

we'd have a pet too!
either a big, furry, loving dog
with his tongue hanging out all the time,
or an equally furry, spoilt whiskery cat
with a long swishy tail.

i want to have at least 2 children.
almost definitely a boy and a girl :)
and i had this dream some years ago,
that my daughter was going to be very
tall and pale with long, shiny obsidian hair.

i dreamt about her name too,
if u can believe it.
there was this book in front of me
and it's pages were turning by itself.
and on every page there was the name
Moonchild. it appeared in capitals
all the time and jumped out at me.
hence my firstborn daughter will be
called Moonchild.
liz sed her friends will tease her silly
and i spose she's right,
but i don't care :P

mr. future husband and i
will have very good relationships wif our kids.
we'd talk to them about all their problems,
try to be as understanding as possible,
and help them out in any way we can :)

we'll travel alot during the holidays,
to anywhere in the world!
and we'll bring our parents along too,
if they want hehe :P

circa 50, i will retire and stay home
to take care of the kids, maybe even grandkids
if it comes to that :P
mr. future husband will have to retire
soon enough after i do
and then we'll both go globe-trotting together
with old friends who have nothing better to do.
(like liz and her mr. future husband!!)

we'll buy a retirement home next to liz's,
which will be by some beautiful sandy beach.
there won't be any need to have an alarm
or a fence wif barbed wire for security measures,
because it will be a very safe and peaceful area.

it will be a house made of wood on stilts,
and the walls which are facing the sea
won't be walls, but great glass panels.
and there'll be a big, gaping balcony
with a comfy hammock swaying
to the cool sea breeze....
mmmmm...!

i think my lifeplan has fanned out
into a little beautiful fantasy, hehe.
but what are dreams if they don't
have a touch of surrealism anyway? :)

God bless, all...
sleep tight and dream well.

went to 1u today
and finally used up the RM40
worth of MPH vouchers
i won from the competitions
during english week.

bought this really really cool
and helpful lookin book that's about
Drawing Cutting Edge Cartoons.
the stuff they present looks alot
like those in marvel comics,
so i'm hoping i'll be able to
get my anatomy right now :)

spent most of this afternoon
surfing thru yahoo games and neopets.

neopets has this section
where they teach you how to draw
the pets, faeries, petpets and some other stuff.

checked the faeries step-by-step-guide out
and wanted to try my hand at them.
it's a really diff style from the kind i stick to,
but i'm pretty proud of em
cos i think they pass off well :)

published them,
go and see! :D
you can compare them
to the ones they have in neopets here.
not that i think u will really bother :)

comments welcome as always!

God bless, everybody!

uhh.. her majesty the darkness faerie? :P

the 1st passable mermaid i've ever done :)

fairly proud of this 1 :)
think she could be an air faerie.

i just saw the sweeetest,
most romantic and sentimental
cartoon episode
*smile sappily at you*

nvr been 1 to watch tv much,
but earlier when i was
waitin for mum to finish bathing,
i sat down next to mi on the bed
and watched as told by ginger
on nickleodeon.

ginger was in senior high now,
and apparently she and darren
had gotten together,
only in this episode,
darren left her to go out with
this cheerleader called simone.

she was really really
completely heartbroken,
bcos she and darren have been best friends
ever since forever.

to suddenly have ur best friend
and your boyfriend
vanish from ur side,
by his choice to boot...

it must be so very devastating :(

and by some stroke of ill-fortune,
ginger collapsed bcos of kidney failure
on the very same day darren broke up wif her,
and ended up in the hospital.
luckily her stepfather was a doctor
at the nearest hospital
and operated on her.
he saved her life.

now she's lying on her hospital bed,
waiting and waiting for
darren to come and visit her
and talk to her like they always did..
only he doesn't come
bcos he doesn't dare to.

he wanted to see her,
only he changed his mind
bcos he thought it wud be for the better.
he wrote halfway in this little get well card
he bought from the hospital gift-store,
before he threw it away.

the garbage collector found the card
with ginger's name on it
and brought it to her room.

ginger read everything out loud
and started crying bcos he didn't finish it.

it was so so saaaad..
and just so unbelievably sweet..
i really half-felt like crying.

i promise before the holidays are thru
i'm going to get kazaa again,
and dl every1 of the as told by ginger episodes,
during her time in senior high.
or mebbe i can beg jian sheng
or cow to help me..

yee...
it's so silly getting so mushy
over a cartoon series,
but it really was so incredibly moving..

gonna watch it again tml at 9.30pm,
and i hope darren does come back to visit her,
and that there'll be a sweet, happy ending :)

love stories just aren't right
without a happy ending..

u noe it took me so long
to finally admit that i like sweet valley books.
or the senior high series anyway :P
it's so lovely and romantic
to witness two ppl fall in love
and get heartbroken
and then fall in love again..

ok, that sounded very evil of me,
but it is very enjoyable to read/watch
bout other ppl's love lives :(

neway think i've blubbered
on for too long now.
two posts in 1 day summore!

hm, think of it as a 2in1 package ^^

God bless! :D

(ooh, btw,
our household has been
very heavily struck by neopet-fever.
mi came back from an overnight
at xian mei's and apparently
registered at neopets.
we've been playing the games
*esp the gambling 1s*
to help her earn more neopoints.
nvr quite realised
how fun it was before :P
even cus has signed up
and adopted a pet!)

wheeeeee!
guess what?
my yahoo mail account
has 1GB worth of storage now!
*beams*

my techie cousin popped up
on yahoo msgr earlier,
and passed me a link.
don't noe exactly whut it did,
cos everything was in chinese..
but after clicking on all the buttons
i could understand,
i signed into yahoo mail and saw

You are using 2% of 1GB.

these ppl are sooo clever.
dunno how they find 1.
i think it's a hack or sth,
cos it's not official
*goggle*

don't have the link now
cos i'm the office (agaaaiin),
but the web offers many alternatives
*grinz*

so, if u're interested,
do click:)

everything will be in chinese
except the numbers (duh!),
so you shudn't have any problems
spotting the huge glowing button
that has "1GB" on it :P

also ran a lil looksee on google
and found a thread that proclaims

"This listed procedure
will give you an English language interface
for a 1GB Yahoo China account."

surfed abit more
and found another webby
that has really really nice blog templates.

their templates' interfaces
are very pro: simple and practical,
but they still look extremely good :)
imho, neway.
.......

ugh, my father can be such
an abhorrent man.
i pity my kids and mr. future husband.
they're gonna have such an odious
father-in-law and grandpapa.

gotta run, God bless!

very weary today.
got up at 7.50am for tuition.
left home at 8.40am.
went home at 2+pm.

went church at 3.20pm,
and was busy the entire time
till i got home at nearly 8pm.

then we went out for dinner.
by the time i'd finished bathing
it was 9.15pm :(

brought cus to church
for the 1st time ,
but didn't have time
to take care of him.

1st i had worship practise,
then worship itself.
thank God he could
attend kingdom keys wif mei yii :)

and today of all days,
lydia got a few of us to mime out
her dad's msg.
had to act as queen esther
from the bible.
felt rather silly but it was fun
to dress up.

wore a wonky crown and
this heinous red dress,
which esther jie jie thankfully
covered up wif a golden wrap thing.
half wish some1 took a picture
of us all :)

right after the msg
was the talentsearch thing
and we had to act out a bible story today.
our group got "daniel in the lion's den"
and i think we did quite well :)

didn't get to spend time wif cus at all
but mebbe it's a good thing.

he talked to ps. carey for quite abit
and i dunno how much he's gotten out of it,
except he says he'd "better come"
to church again next week.

tiring day.

felt quite semi-depressive after
thinking of cus and some stuff,
but thankfully i'm ok now.

nitez, all..
and God bless.

[update]
btw, posted some new pics
of our little household dracula :)
know some of you guys
haven't seen him in ages.
he's much bigger now
and his ears perk completely upright,
unlike last time :P
very cute.
enjoy!

mimmles cuddling her little oodlums.

looky looky! it's batdog! :P

draccy's [potential] underwear-model pose.
check that thigh out, *phwoar!*

PS. disregard my waistline
and focus on the [quote marvin]
sinfully cute, black fluffimal on my lap :)

was just flippin thru a small bundle of
fashion magazines i "borrowed" from mum and liz.
the models are soo leggy and gorgeous :)

drew a couple of girls
and sent them to cow yday.
was actually quite happy wif em 1..
but they weren't proportionate enuff.

cow sed to use references,
hence the mag-browsin :P

u noe i really must learn
how to accept critiscm better.
i went all sulky when cow sed
he didn't like my drawings :/

hm.. i've been drawing nearly
ever since i cud hold a pencil in my hand.
just dunno why i got fixated on drawing girls :P

it used to be dogs, horses, mermaids
and all sorts of weird, imaginary
furry little creatures.
when i was 10 i drew up
a whole "petshop catalog"
which had any sort of animal you'd care to have,
and went around class
asking everybody which pet
would they like to buy :P

i love drawing so very much :)
it's so fun to create somebody,
or something, with ur hands,
and a little imagination.

gonna be referencing the mags for sometime.
gonna cartoonify all the models i like best :P
will post the nicer ones when i have them.

drew sth earlier while
waitin to go home after tuition.
scroll down to see her:
some constructive feedback wud be nice
*hint-hint* :)

there was some stuff i wanted to blog about,
but i can't really remember them now.

oh, but i remember us all thinkin
mr. rao was really way cool today
cos he bought 1 of our classmates
a secret recipe birthday cake
right after he heard us singing happy bday to her :)

he just dished out a casual RM50,
passed it to mr. kumar outside
and told him to buy a cake.

have u ever? :)

k, God bless everybody!

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[click to see her really close up.]

felt like naming this 1, so i did :)
everyone, meet miranda.
my first attempt at bare feet hehe.

made a friend (rovena) in tuition
and got to know a few classmates better today :)
we had 2 hours of nonstop chatter
cos mr. rao didn't make it
for our physics lesson:
he got called up by the ministry
for questioning.

his SPM tips were apparently
too accurate for coincidence :P

after addmath paper 1 this morning,
they got hold of his tips notes and called him in.
when mr. rao finally showed up,
physics lesson was over
and he'd been in for interrogation
since 11am till 4pm.
that's like 5 hours :/

we asked him why wasn't he arrested
and he said, "they can't touch us what,
we're clean."

don't think he's very "clean" at all
cos he's definitely got some inside sources,
but who am i to complain :)

found out after tuition
that it's eric's bday today.
he's this really cute (and hot) guy
in his early twenties
who works in the office :P

fiona (my cousin) passed me
a starbucks cake box and sed i cud have it.
there was a very generous and
expensive-looking slice of
marble cheesecake inside.

thought they were joking at first,
so i didn't touch the cake.
but when it turned out that they weren't,
i ate it and it was delicious :)

following hearsay,
eric's ex-girlfriend just flew in from taiwan.
just to see him today, on his birthday.
*goggle*

she'd come to the office to visit him,
with a huge shopping bag overflowin wif
delicious starbucks delicacies,
(which we all very greedily ate up)
and another big bag full of branded presents for him.

he was really happy at first,
but afterward he got quite.. um, distraught
cos he'd sorta broken up wif her sometime ago
and found another girlfriend :P

so now that his taiwanese ex
has gone and flown here..
there could be some distressing consequences tonight,
hehe.

prolly will hear all bout it tml :)

God bless, everybody!
hope you guys did well for addmath today ^^

an hr ago,
i wud've started this post wif:

" i'm in one of those
i'm-so-pathetic moods atm.
i am fat, lazy, slow, unathletic and broke.
i think i'll go curl up in bed
and die in my sleep. "

but i feel alot better now so i won't, hehe.

mum and dad took cus
to his homeotherapist (or sth like that) yday.
after a check-up,
she sed that cus had mercury in his blood.
most likely from a dental filling
called amalgam.
.......

define: amalgam(url)
typical silver colored filling
made of mix of silver, tin, mercury,
and some other trace elements like copper.
Advantages- placement easier
than other materials, cost.
Disadvantages- color,
breaks down in mouth releasing mercury
and other trace metals.
Stains teeth over time.
.......

cus doesn't have any dental fillings
but mum does, so the doctor suggested
that cus cud've gotten the mercury from mum
while he was still a fetus.

so now, it stands to reason that
mi and i likely have mercury in our blood too :/

and it also turns out that mercury
cud've entered our bloodstream
by consumption of fish
which were "caught from local waters
that are contaminated with mercury."

she told mum to check it up on the internet
'cos there's alot of controversy on the subject,
or sth like that.

so i fed amalgam and mercury poisoning to google,
and here're snippets of wut i got:

... can result in
nervous system damage including tremors,
and mood and personality alterations...
(the mood and personality thing
sounds suspiciously familiar)

... can cause kidney damage...
(um, so far no, thank God :)

... grade chronic mercury intoxication
can give rise to symptoms as;
anxiety (mum?), irritability (me?),
fatigue (dad? hehe),
outbursts of temper (the whole family!),
stress intolerance (dad and mum),
decreased simultaneous capacity
(uh.. all of us too i think :P),
loss of self-confidence (cus and i!) ,
indecision (all the girls ;), headache (every1la),
depression (mum, dad and sometimes me),
metallic taste (thank God, no) etc...

... can result in numbness or tingling in the extremities,
sensory losses and loss of coordination...
(nuh-uh)

but the thing that caught
our attention the most was:
... Exposure of the developing fetus
through maternal intake of contaminated fish
can result in neurologic developmental abnormalities
in cognitive and motor functions...

it applies suspiciously well to cus:
he only learnt how to tie his shoelaces last yr,
and he's 13.

but i also found that:
People are most likely to be exposed
to metallic mercury from
mercury released from dental fillings;
however the amount of mercury
released from dental fillings
is generally not considered to be high enough
to cause adverse health effects.

so i guess it's all good :)

oddly, none of this worries me very much.
in fact thinking that we might've finally
discovered why cus is the way he is
is sorta a relief.

think alot of this is food for thought.
it definitely took my mind off my patheticness :)

God bless, everybody!
.......

oh, and remember pray for the wong family
whose kids have mercury coursing
thru the quart of their veins :)
a lil prayer won't hurt after all, hehe..

today, for the 1st time in history,
we actually made our own (late) breakfast ^^

tried my first hand at boiling sausages
and they turned out so so yummy :)
*licks lips*
and we invented a new and conservative way
of makin homemade garlic bread too!

you know how nobody really
likes the crust on the sides of a slice of bread?
well, mi cut those off
and we started dabbing garlic spread all over em :)

arranged them in neat little rows
in our trusty widdle toaster and fired em up.
they turned out really really crunchy and scrumpy :)
oyishii desu..!

went to the huge giant in kelana jaya
wif family after tuition,
and bought a new basketball.
we're going to get a basketball stand soon too! :D
i can't wait i can't wait
*beams*

then mum and dad bought this DIY shelf,
for all the overflowing books
sitting on our dining table d'stairs,
and cus, mi and i had to fix it all up..
s'always us 1 :/

we screwed and unscrewed so many planks,
cos so many times,
we realised that this particular plank
had to face the other direction,
or that particular plank was only for
the divider in between the shorter planks...
or some plank wasn't aligned in such a way
so that the screws wud go into their destined holes..
etc.

we realised alot of that waay too late :(
had to unscrew everything
and realign 'em,
over and over again.

think the worst thing tho,
was that we only had 1 screwdriver
for all the 30++ nails we had to screw in :(
and i did most of the screwing
so now my arms feel as tho
they cud fall right out of their sockets.

it was a really nice dayla :)
having no kakak nemore
somehow's made things in our family
seem... more intimate, so far.
we spend more time with each other
and talk to each other more.
i just pray things will only get better :)

neway,
here's to all you SPM-ers,
if u're even readin this :P
(if u are, u better get back to the books!
esp you, wenny ;)

God bless and take care!
exams start really really soon don't they ;)
study hard and remember to have fun!